I don't understand why...

Why am I put down to make so many decisions?

Is this part of life?

I have made many critical decisions pertaining to my next 2-3 years in NUS (it's like coming to the end of my first year already!!).

And this is the first time that in one academic year, I have taken on so many positions in committees as a member and as a leader.

Joined the Archives comm coz Siao Er is the vice. But that's not the point. It's great looking back at funny photos of the past KR and all the achievements and it's something new! And it's coinciding with my other position in hall - Marketing Executive which I need to get access to the history of KR. I realised that I didn't get those committees/positions that I fought for. Instead, the positions that I have no, frankly speaking, were given to me by the heads themselves. They approached me and I gladly accepted the challenge. Same goes for Bizad Club. Today, if not for Lingzi (whom I must really thank), who is the Publicity head, I wouldn't be the Publications Unit Head and Vice Yearbook Head for Bizad Club!

These things have come to me as a blessing and as a gift from God. I wouldn't have thought of personally going to ask for the position. Instead, they approached me and made me consider if I wanted to join them.

This happened also in Church where I was approached to take on the job of the LF group 2nd i/c. And also be part of the startup for the Youth Uni Outreach. And almost getting involved in YF comm!

I joined NUSChoir as well, fulfilling my dream of coming to NUS (not only just to study). And being just a member for a few months (maybe 2 months?) and then taking on the role of the Assistant Treasurer for VV'08 has been a wild of my time in NUSChoir!

Harris and Paulus asked me to consider running for VP (out of other reasons as well) and others encouraged me to. And being nominated was already so exciting!! Preparing and running for VP was another experience! And not getting the position was another test of faith of God. God said No to VP this time round but blessed me by letting me be the Secretary of the Choir :) And with this, He gives me another round of experience in a different position in the Choir comm.

Nadiah on Choir forum:
We're proud to present to you your new committee for the academic year 2008/2009!

Admin:
Secretary - Rachel Poo Ruixian
Treasurer: Nathalie Grace Sy Chua
Welfare Secretary: Ng Juat Teng
Publicity Secretary: Lew Pei Suen
Logistics Secretary:Ferdinand Anak Peter
Records Secretary: Keoh Wei Pien Leo

Music:
Soprano Sectional Leaders: Goh Shu Shan & Wee Sing Gek Sheena
Alto Sectional Leaders: Lim Pei Min & Loh Yuanzhen Alicia
Tenor Sectional Leader: Aditya Santoso
Bass Sectional Leader: Joel Poh

Congratulations!

We look forward to working with you guys to serve NUS CHOIR!

Regards, Harris, Nadiah and Michelle Y -
HnM (:

* there will be a process of vote of confidence for the admin com on Monday 3 March.

Well, this comm looks really fun to work with and I do hope we would help each other along the way :)

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Ok, I have digressed from my emo self at the beginning of the post.

I have a decision to make again.

A decision that is going to affect my 3 months holiday in June. But it's going to be a very meaningful event :)

I know it's going to be so unfair to the other committees that I am in:

Archives
Marketing Executive
LF
BizAd Club
Choir

And now FLAG.

I as the ME already have to work with the OP comms - Rag, Flag, FWOC. And joining specifically FLAG. Will it hinder me from so many other activities and from giving my fullest to the other comms?

Lao Ban (for ME) asked me join Flag and promises it should be manageable. But that's him! Would I be able to? He knows my commitments to Choir and to the other activities and that I am going Russia for 2 weeks in June. But he still asked me to.

I had a very mean and rash reaction just now by turning him down immediately. Just as how I turned down Mich Y when she asked me take on the Secretary post.

I guess it's really up to me to decide. No one can make decisions for me. And even though I grumble so much, I just need to talk it out to people. I am not basing my decision on them. I don't need them to give me a definite answer. And answers like "If you think you want, then go ahead." I really don't know if I want it or not. I need to talk it through and talking it on my own, to myself doesn't help. I need to talk to people who would question me and it would then incline me to a decision.

I rely on God as well with prayers. And I know that whatever decision I make and the outcome of it will be because of God's blessings.

Great, I guess I know where I am getting at now.

I have just inclined myself more to taking up the offer. I will make a final decision after I have spoken to Gim Sen, the Flag chair and understand more about it. I have to let him know that I can't commit much to the job because of the other commitments I have. If he decides not to take me, then that's the answer.

Father in Heaven, I ask for wisdom and Your guidance.

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The power of prayer is strong and great that it gives us strength. It gives us a reassurance. Jia you Ame :)

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I had a great lunch with Harris and Ky just now at Dover market again :) Harris was late!! But with a reason. We had curry chicken rice which is suppose to be famous! I still feel a bit of the spice in my mouth! It's great :)

It was great company with the guys as we talked about driving lessonssss!! (Congrats to Gracelyn for passing BTT :)) I realised I kinda forgot a bit of the skills already! But guess it'd come back naturally when I do drive.

We had our usual bubbletea =)

Harris and I went to the Music Library just now and wow! There were many scores that I have never thought I would even pick it out to read! Shall go there someday to find scores for Alumni choir!

Our Fri lunches are getting more interesting ;)

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My posts are always so long. why can't my reports be as easy as blogging? It's so easy to reach a 1000 words!!

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My mood has changed a few times through this post. And that goes to show how terrible my emotions run wild.

I hope I make the right decisions.

Enlighten me pleaseeee!!!

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Throw away all cares and fly with me~