I don't understand why...
Why am I put down to make so many decisions?
Is this part of life?
I have made many critical decisions pertaining to my next 2-3 years in NUS (it's like coming to the end of my first year already!!).
And this is the first time that in one academic year, I have taken on so many positions in committees as a member and as a leader.
Joined the Archives comm coz Siao Er is the vice. But that's not the point. It's great looking back at funny photos of the past KR and all the achievements and it's something new! And it's coinciding with my other position in hall - Marketing Executive which I need to get access to the history of KR. I realised that I didn't get those committees/positions that I fought for. Instead, the positions that I have no, frankly speaking, were given to me by the heads themselves. They approached me and I gladly accepted the challenge. Same goes for Bizad Club. Today, if not for Lingzi (whom I must really thank), who is the Publicity head, I wouldn't be the Publications Unit Head and Vice Yearbook Head for Bizad Club!
These things have come to me as a blessing and as a gift from God. I wouldn't have thought of personally going to ask for the position. Instead, they approached me and made me consider if I wanted to join them.
This happened also in Church where I was approached to take on the job of the LF group 2nd i/c. And also be part of the startup for the Youth Uni Outreach. And almost getting involved in YF comm!
I joined NUSChoir as well, fulfilling my dream of coming to NUS (not only just to study). And being just a member for a few months (maybe 2 months?) and then taking on the role of the Assistant Treasurer for VV'08 has been a wild of my time in NUSChoir!
Harris and Paulus asked me to consider running for VP (out of other reasons as well) and others encouraged me to. And being nominated was already so exciting!! Preparing and running for VP was another experience! And not getting the position was another test of faith of God. God said No to VP this time round but blessed me by letting me be the Secretary of the Choir :) And with this, He gives me another round of experience in a different position in the Choir comm.
Nadiah on Choir forum:
We're proud to present to you your new committee for the academic year 2008/2009!
Admin:
Secretary - Rachel Poo Ruixian
Treasurer: Nathalie Grace Sy Chua
Welfare Secretary: Ng Juat Teng
Publicity Secretary: Lew Pei Suen
Logistics Secretary:Ferdinand Anak Peter
Records Secretary: Keoh Wei Pien Leo
Music:
Soprano Sectional Leaders: Goh Shu Shan & Wee Sing Gek Sheena
Alto Sectional Leaders: Lim Pei Min & Loh Yuanzhen Alicia
Tenor Sectional Leader: Aditya Santoso
Bass Sectional Leader: Joel Poh
Congratulations!
We look forward to working with you guys to serve NUS CHOIR!
Regards, Harris, Nadiah and Michelle Y -
HnM (:
* there will be a process of vote of confidence for the admin com on Monday 3 March.
Well, this comm looks really fun to work with and I do hope we would help each other along the way :)
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Ok, I have digressed from my emo self at the beginning of the post.
I have a decision to make again.
A decision that is going to affect my 3 months holiday in June. But it's going to be a very meaningful event :)
I know it's going to be so unfair to the other committees that I am in:
Archives
Marketing Executive
LF
BizAd Club
Choir
And now FLAG.
I as the ME already have to work with the OP comms - Rag, Flag, FWOC. And joining specifically FLAG. Will it hinder me from so many other activities and from giving my fullest to the other comms?
Lao Ban (for ME) asked me join Flag and promises it should be manageable. But that's him! Would I be able to? He knows my commitments to Choir and to the other activities and that I am going Russia for 2 weeks in June. But he still asked me to.
I had a very mean and rash reaction just now by turning him down immediately. Just as how I turned down Mich Y when she asked me take on the Secretary post.
I guess it's really up to me to decide. No one can make decisions for me. And even though I grumble so much, I just need to talk it out to people. I am not basing my decision on them. I don't need them to give me a definite answer. And answers like "If you think you want, then go ahead." I really don't know if I want it or not. I need to talk it through and talking it on my own, to myself doesn't help. I need to talk to people who would question me and it would then incline me to a decision.
I rely on God as well with prayers. And I know that whatever decision I make and the outcome of it will be because of God's blessings.
Great, I guess I know where I am getting at now.
I have just inclined myself more to taking up the offer. I will make a final decision after I have spoken to Gim Sen, the Flag chair and understand more about it. I have to let him know that I can't commit much to the job because of the other commitments I have. If he decides not to take me, then that's the answer.
Father in Heaven, I ask for wisdom and Your guidance.
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The power of prayer is strong and great that it gives us strength. It gives us a reassurance. Jia you Ame :)
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I had a great lunch with Harris and Ky just now at Dover market again :) Harris was late!! But with a reason. We had curry chicken rice which is suppose to be famous! I still feel a bit of the spice in my mouth! It's great :)
It was great company with the guys as we talked about driving lessonssss!! (Congrats to Gracelyn for passing BTT :)) I realised I kinda forgot a bit of the skills already! But guess it'd come back naturally when I do drive.
We had our usual bubbletea =)
Harris and I went to the Music Library just now and wow! There were many scores that I have never thought I would even pick it out to read! Shall go there someday to find scores for Alumni choir!
Our Fri lunches are getting more interesting ;)
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My posts are always so long. why can't my reports be as easy as blogging? It's so easy to reach a 1000 words!!
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My mood has changed a few times through this post. And that goes to show how terrible my emotions run wild.
I hope I make the right decisions.
Enlighten me pleaseeee!!!
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Throw away all cares and fly with me~
I'm a happy girl :)
Really elated, enthralled, exhilerated!
Well, I just don't know how to explain it here. And I shan't say much till another time. But I guess only Ann understands :) And she's probably the only one that I am able to share such happiness with after going through so much! :)
Not to say that zhen and the others aren't able to, but guess they aren't in such an environment with me to be able to feel for it! Thanks to zhen anyway, for letting me release much excitement and for calming me down. I would probably go bonkers without her pulling me back to reality.
Thanks to Amelia too for being there when I needed to scream! I guess I scared her out of her wits with me just running into her room!! (It's not far, just 5 steps away!) Lixuan and Siao Er were not in coz they went night cycling. And so the next best person was AME!! She was beaming red when I just went up to hug her! She was really shocked when she felt my heartbeat! My heart was like going to pop out anytime!!
And Ann was screaming her head off when I called her! She really had the energy to reciprocate my excitement at 12am!! It's probably the reason why I got even more excited! :)
Even Nad and Harris have no idea why am I so excited about it. But well, it's a new beginning and I will put in my best to do my job well :) I am so thankful to Nad, Mich and Harris for giving me this opportunity! Thanks for having so much faith in me! I will strive to do my best and we'll be there for each other :) I've much to learn and I will learn!
Thanks to Ziwei, zhen and Di for the encouragement :) I wouldn't have decided to take the step without you girls preparing me for it! I have much to learn from you guys too!
In the midst of all these, I have thought about my future in biz school. With me deciding to be in choir comm, puts much risk to my biz future coz I won't be able to do SEP and Intern if I decide to go further with the choir. It's a very disturbing and mind boggling decision. But I'd do this post first before deciding on the next step. It's so against the rule of planning for the future but I guess with horrendous grades, it doesn't matter at this point in time now. I will work hard for this position :)
Thanks especially to the Father in Heaven :) I have no idea how much love and guidance he has given me. He has given me another learning adventure!
I felt really guilty for not going bible study last night. But it gave me a good chance to catch up with Ame and Huiru. I realised how often I have not been back in my room for anyone to come to chat with me. And I was glad I was around last night to help them with personal matters and understandings. The power of God is strong and He will help us overcome all odds. And I know that His standards are far beyond ours. Trying to follow Him will be hard but we shall perserve!
And I know there are many out there reading this quietly. But it's really ok with me to let me know who you all are :) Tag me kk!
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ so exciting!!!
I've had a high calorie start to the study break and my body is reacting to it.
Sun:
- chicken rice for lunch
- black chicken soup + broccoli with bean curd for dinner cooked by mummy :)
It was a sumptuous dinner even though it was only 2 dishes! Well done mummy :)
Mon:
- bread with ham for breakfast
- chicken chop for lunch at West Coast food centre with xuanie :) Went sheng siong with her after that and got LOADS of groceries! (Mainly food! hehe! Well, the study break is here and I decided that it's going to be like a holiday and no stress. So there has to be food to keep me happy! I have 5 cup noodles and 6 cups of meiji yogurt! And a container of Twisters which would keep many people happy when they come by my room :))
- Met Ferdy and Glenn at Engine canteen for dinner. Had fish soup soup + rice. - Macs strawberry sundae for desert :)
It was a wonderful dinner and I thank Ferdy and Glenn for having me at dinner. With Glenn around, we will do nothing but start singing. I can see that they were still having post choir syndromes.
- And loads of sweets along the way >.<
Tues:
- 2 chicken paos for breakfast. I managed to wake up at 8am to go and get breakfast with amie! And there were a variety of food for the first time!! Guess noone goes down for bkfast during hols.
- Met Ann dearie at Engine (YES AGAIN!!) for breakfast. Had beancurd with Ginko nut.
- Went to macs for hot fudge sundae desert!!!
(Yes, for 2 days in a row. rather, 2 major meals was at engine before going over to macs for desert!!) We had a wonderful time thinking about choir days to come. It's so amazing that we have so many plans for ourselves yet, choir is always one of the more things on priority! I am so glad to have her as my best friend in choir and I really do hope that would stay in years to come :) I admit I did neglect her quite a bit for the past few weeks coz of VV and other things. But I am sure to treat her nicer in future! Can't do without great friends :)
- Tea was Twister biscuits with Siao Er! And we went off for the STOMP survey at SOC.
Thank God for Mich Yeoh! An amazing discovery on Mon night was that Siao Er and her are in the SAME BIZ GEM PROJECT GROUP! which means she knows ame and xuanie too!! It's such a small world...And thank God for her coz she reminded SE that we were going to have the survey at 330pm! I knew SE would forget just as I forgot! >.<>
SE and I had a great survey where we got to read articles and surf the net! 50 mins there for $10 was good money :) hehe! But that's besides the point.
We went Fong Seng after that coz SE wanted to get something. And we stopped for CHOCOLATE WAFFLE/PANCAKE! SINFUL. We shared the calories so I guess it was alright! hehe!
I made my way to REDHILL to meet Wendy and then we went off to CITYHALL, SUNTEC! (530pm) There have been loads of changes to Ri*coh and I guess it's the typical reason why many people would decide to leave a company- restructuring. SO MNO. Met Ann at Suntec (615pm) and we walked, and walked, and walked. And they went to walk the Fortune Fountain (7pm), while I stood by the side taking photos of them.
We decided on Carl's Jr for dinner and walked another 45 mins for Aifung and Zhen to come, which they did at 745pm >.<
Wendy jie, ALL THE BEST :) Remember to come back and look for us ok! Thanks for being such a great supervisor and friend :)
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ No goodbyes...
The midterm hols has come and it's really time for me to settle down and get started on my studies. I have not been slacking during the sem and I do not wish to slack in the next half of the sem. It must not be a repeat of last sem! I will do well and it does seem promising :)
I guess I have learnt to juggle my time and know how to work efficiently after a horrendous first sem! But is it producing results is another question.
This midterm hols will see Rachel in her room at KR finishing up her webcasts that she has on hold = 10 hours. Also, she will be completing her tutorials for Thurs (MS and Law). She will also finish up the next weeks tutorial and law individual assignment! She will also not forget her Heavenly Father and diligently do her bible study. Her friends are also not forgotten =) well, if they organise something and that she's free, she will be there.
She will also HAVE to STUDY for the midterm tests that are coming up:
21 Feb - GEK1505 (LWM)
3 March - DSC2003 (MS)
10 March - BSP1004A (law)
13 March - ST1131A (Stats)
15 March - BSP1005 (Econs)
It seems like a mini final exam.
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I had a very busy day yesterday with only effectively 1.5 hours of studies.
I managed to wake up for the lecture at 10am!! Dear Sara had a very tiring night and so she didn't go with me to the lecture. But I met Cindy and Sharon there :)
After lecture, i went to meet xian~ to help her with the tix money stuff and went to see Jacey. Was late in meeting Harris for lunch at Science. But half an hour was great too :)
Went back to hall and settled hall stuff. And when I left to go to CFA to meet Aaron, there were police cars and ambulances on the slope!! And here is what happened:
"
Dear all
The circular from Office of Safety, Health & Environment is attached for your information please..
THE ACCIDENT AT ALUMNI COMPLEX CONSTRUCTION SITE
On 22 February 2008 at about 2:15pm, NUS Campus Security was informed that a tower crane at the Alumni Complex construction site had toppled. Concerned about possible casualties, they immediately called for the ambulance. Three construction workers were found under the crane and they were pronounced dead by ambulance paramedics. Two other workers sustained some injuries and have been conveyed to National University Hospital.
The linkway to bus stop at Biz 1 was slightly damaged. The access to the site Biz 1 bus stop and affected area beside the bus stop has been cordoned off. A temporary bus stop has been set up a short distance away.
The police are now investigating the incident. For your information, please.
"
Oh well, life is such...
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Aaron was late but it was ok :) Coz mummy called!!! :)) She missed meeeee!!! :)) mummy rocks!!
We went to settle the tix stuff and wheeewww~ am I glad it is :)
And I have made a decision after speaking to many people!! Ziwei, Zhen, SE, Lix, Xf, Aaron, Mich Y, Harris, Nat and xian~, i am prepared for whatever position I am going to take up! Be it Secretary or Treasurer! Well, I will take pride and enjoy whatever I am doing. But seriously, after the 2 days of thought and dreams, I want to be the secretary. It's something different!! And besides, if there is a need, I will help the treasurer wherever I can especially during VV'09 next year where I know the tix stuff is possibly going to get messy. I have told Mich my decision but it's still up to them to see where they want me to be. I will gladly take on any position. But I would want to be secretary and learn along the way! It's going to be an exciting year!!
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We went for Dianne's play!! Introspection '08! Pics are up at the Weirdz blog: xweirdzx.blogspot.com.
I had a great time with Zhen as we sat through the 2 hours of intriguing plays! Well, we understood the first, second and last one (out of 5). But the other 2 were abit abstract. The plays were very well rehearsed and they were so professional! Even when they needed to scream, cry, laugh all...it was so natural! I really enjoyed watching it and paying $12 for it was worth it :)
Dearest Di, you did really great!! And being natural is what you are = bimbo! :)) Jia you!!
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It's been a long, long day... And a very tiring week with lesser than 5 hours of sleep each night. My lifestyle has to change for the better.
going to do my webcast now before going homeeeee!! :)))
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~PiNkdELiGhTs~ nothing beats a smile from you!
FACT OR FICTION
Do You Really Need Seven Hours of Sleep?
Yep, you do.
By Temma Ehrenfeld | Newsweek Web Exclusive
Feb 19, 2008 | Updated: 12:25 p.m. ET Feb 19, 2008
http://www.newsweek.com/id/113270?g=1
Related:
Arizona
Robert Rosenberg
Sleep Disorders Center of Prescott Valley
Yep, you do. Although people do vary in how much sleep they need, the differences are slight, and the vast majority of us (including seniors) need seven to eight hours. Most people who regularly get less than seven hours of rest are simply unaware of the damage that fatigue and sleepiness is doing to their bodies. Chronic "short-sleepers," as scientists call them, have forgotten what it feels like to be well-rested, says Robert Rosenberg, medical director of the Sleep Disorders Center of Prescott Valley, in Arizona.
The evidence indicates that a person who regularly sleeps less than seven hours a night functions as badly as someone who hasn't slept for one to three days, according to a research review published in the Journal of Clinical Sleep Medicine last year. Furthermore, the largest current longitudinal studies (one involving 21,268 people and another 10,308) showed that sleep-deprivation increased mortality: the chance of dying younger than people of the same age, gender and health-risk factors. In the larger study researchers at the Finnish Institute of Occupational Health assessed the sleep habits of the group in 1975 and 1981 and then checked to see who was still alive on Dec. 31, 2003. After comparing subjects' survival rates to the average for people of the same age (and adjusting for other known death risks, like smoking), the researchers concluded that lack of sleep increased mortality in the study participants by 26 percent for men and 21 percent for women. The cause of death might be accidents, or diseases exacerbated by sleep-deprivation. Other current research indicates that lack of sleep affects the body's hormones, immune system and metabolism; hence, it can be a risk factor for obesity, diabetes and heart disease.
To evaluate the quality of your own sleep—and whether you're getting enough—try these tools offered by the American Academy of Sleep Medicine.
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Oh dear...i am in great danger. I have been sleeping lesser than 5 hours each night!!
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ making many decisions...
I am still recovering from all the excitement that has been welling up in me for the past few days.
I will go straight into the choir elections.
Yes, it is over. The elections for P and VP are over.
No, I did not get the VP position.
Well, it was a tough fight. And I am really glad that I had all the stamina to run this marathon. I completed the election race. But sadly, didn't complete to finish top 2. Anyway, I finished 3rd :) which is a great, great feat :)
7 people ran - Ferdy, Juat, Sheena, Pei Suen, Nadiah, Michelle and me.
Out of these, Ferdy and Nadiah ran for P while the rest of us ran for VP.
Huai Zhi announced the results of the top 3 positions and there was Nadiah, Michelle and me :)
Nadiah is voted the president! (Which is so predictable) and Michelle was voted the Vice pres :) That meant I didn't get.
But it's alright! And I AM SERIOUSLY ALRIGHT :)))) They are seniors and they know more about the choir than I do. And the choir voted them so I guess that's fair :) But I did hear that my votes were substantial enough! (If not I wouldn't be top 3!)
I shan't be naive and think that those who encouraged me to run would vote for me. Afterall, they would have to vote for the best among all!! Michelle did run for VP last year but she didn't get. I am in a similar case where I ran but I didn't get. So, there's always next year :) Just that I have to redraw my plans now. I really want to go for attachment and SEP...
Seriously, MIchelle is good. She is able to relate to people. well, I guess I am still a greenhorn in this choir and do not know many people. She was able to catch people's attention in a good way :) And I still have to learn much from her. She is very well-liked and I know she would do great!
I am disappointed. And that is a fact. No, I am not being a sour grape here. I have put in my very best and really fought in this race. But it didn't turn out the way I wanted it to be. It's coz I am a junior and that there are strong and potential seniors running. And seniors are of coz closer bonded to the choir. I am still a newbie, 7 months into choir...And Adyll did say I have loads to learn about handling the choir.
I am considering of joining the comm. Still thinking.
My speech was well done :) I mean to my expectations! I thought I was going to be there freaking out. But it turned out well! And I actually answered 2 of the standard questions they were going to ask at the end of the speech! Hehe! It was a well prepared speech :) And it was straight from the heart! I was really sincere about it and some could feel it:)
I was controlling really hard not to breakdown. Coz I know that no matter who gets it, the choir will be in great hands :) And I have already done my best. But I still couldn't control and with people coming to me to thank me and to console me, it didn't help. Even people like Zhihao and Baozhu and Winnie and Amanda came to talk to me :) I hardly do talk to them and they still came forth for me.
Other lovely people were Ann!! Who stood by me the whole way! I am so sorry dear for letting you down and all your hard work and love for me!
To xiannn!! thanks for being there for me even though I was mean to you sometimes for the past month coz of the ticketing areas. forgive me!
To xian kor!! Thanks for being the advisor! though I know you may not have voted for me, but I know you supported me in spirit!
To Paulus! You were the first person to jolt the question of running for VP, and encouraged me. I know that even though you didn't vote for me, I am still touched by the fact that you supported me in spirit and all the way till today! And I know you prepared me for this outcome. thanks!
To Rhoda dear! thanks for being there and loving me! :)
To Nadiah, for coming to me and telling me that I did great! And for consoling me.
To Michelle, the more you asked me to not cry, i would :) coz you are such a nice person. And i am sure you make a great vp :)
To Aaron, for letting me know that I do stand a chance :) I enjoyed working with you :)
To Adyll, for telling me not to give up :) And that there's another opportunity awaiting me next year!
To Harris! thanks for telling me that you didn't ask me to run, but hinted to me. It was to make me search myself to see if I wanted it or not and not because you asked me to that I did run. Well, I did run. And I ran it well. I am not depressed coz i told you I won't be. And thanks for preparing me for it. Much as i do not know if you voted for me or not, since Michelle is your good friend, but I trust that you meant well :) Thanks for the encouragement :) You do your best as the SC for NUSChoir kk :)
Thanks to everyone else who came to console and encourage me :) You guys made my day :)
Thanks to the closest people who stood by me through this - Ziwei, Lizhen, Sara, Lixuan, Siao Er, Ann, Mum and Dad.
And to the Father in heaven :) thanks for giving me the courage to stand before 70 people to promote myself. I couldn't have done it without His help. And I guess He knows what's best for me!
I did well. And I ran well. And I did the Business people proud :) I said the speech well! And I guess I have improved and learnt much through this election. I do not really know the choir well yet and I lose this elections gracefully :) I had great comments on my speech and my "presentation" and I know that I didn't let myself down on that. :)
Thanks everyone!! I am so sorry if it seems really incoherent and repetitive and that I keep praising myself. I am actually very, very, very happy ::)))))
I have now to think of whether I want to be in the comm and if I should take on the secretary position instead? the other options are
1) Secretary - minutes and attendance records, administrative letters
2) Treasurer - financial matters, budgeting
3) Welfare Secretary (Costumes) - food and miscellaneous items
4) Logistics Secretary - opening of practice venues
5) Publicity Secretary - forum and website maintenance, VV materials
6) Records Secretary - management of scores and recording
Did welfare, treasurer and records work before. Should I try something new??
suggestions anyone?
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ signing off at 420am. :)
I have gotten an answer.
And so I will stop thinking too much.
I guess this is still the best solution out for the both of us and it's no point trying when you know that it would be happen to the best we want it to be.
At least I have the privilege (chance??) to be a sister in place. Which will be a lifetime thing :)
It suddenly comes to a point where I guess friends will be forever whereas Lovers are only for a period of time. So, I am still quite happy. Or rather, I am very relieved :)
Thank you Father for letting me know the truth and that it's not the time yet!
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ I would still be supporting you no matter what :)
10:53am
Aaron: Congratulations! U've been nominated along with 12 people to run for the top two positions in NUS Choir. If u would like to decline/accept to run, let me know!
I have been encouraged by many to run and I gladly accepted the offer with grace to run. The others who are running are really good too and have the potential to bring the choir to greater heights. And it's hitting me with a lot of excitement! I have to prepare a speech and Q&A now for Thurs! But, there's a slight problem. I would be having my Living with Mathematics CA Test on Thurs!! And by the time I end the test and get to CFA, it would be really late! And I know not everyone of the 12 will be accepting the offer to run! So, there would be fewer than 12 people saying their speeches. Now, how long would that take??
I just have to wait to see what Aaron says.
Hmmm..i can't help but wonder if I can even get to say my speech...
SO EXCITING!! :))
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Sobs...Lydia Sum aka Fei fei passed away... :(( she was a talented actress and compare...
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Will be editing this and posting up another post with THE PHOTOS :)) No time to do now...Back to tutorials and webcasts!!
Btw, I changed back to this coz I still like this :) It is more user friendly! hehe! But I still like Fahrenheit!!
Thanks Andy for the Chrysanthemum :)
And thanks Siao Er for the Strawberry Cheesecake Ben & Jerry's last night :))
Thanks to Lixuan for the pineapple tarts :)))
And thanks to Pearlyn for so willing to help me though I didn't ask you :)
And thanks to Teck Yong for sparing your precious 1 hour to help me with my econs :))
It's the beauty of staying in hall :))
Thanks to Nad for telling me that by the nomination, the faith of the members in me is already shown :))
I'm a happy girl today :)
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~PinKdELiGhTs~ determined to make the best out of it :))
It's been 2 days ever since the NUSChoir Varsity Voices 2008: Temptations has drawn its curtains. However, NUSChoir does not stop there! This concert has brought each and every choir member together to a greater level not only as identifying ourselves as just friends of NUSChoir but as a FAMILY.
I am so glad to have decided to join NUSChoir. Well, it's been a dream and coming to NUS was the first step that made me closer to this dream. I did not think of even joining the exco in NUSChoir. I just wanted to be a member and sing. Well, maybe become SL. But there are so many other capable people out there who I do think would be a better SL.
10:53am
Aaron: Congratulations! U've been nominated along with 12 people to run for the top two positions in NUS Choir. If u would like to decline/accept to run, let me know!
I have been encouraged by many to run and I gladly accepted the offer with grace to run. The others who are running are really good too and have the potential to bring the choir to greater heights. And it's hitting me with a lot of excitement! I have to prepare a speech and Q&A now for Thurs! But, there's a slight problem. I would be having my Living with Mathematics CA Test on Thurs!! And by the time I end the test and get to CFA, it would be really late! And I know not everyone of the 12 will be accepting the offer to run! So, there would be fewer than 12 people saying their speeches. Now, how long would that take??
I just have to wait to see what Aaron says.
Hmmm..i can't help but wonder if I can even get to say my speech...
SO EXCITING!! :))
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I still can't believe that after practicing for so long, VV'08 has ended! It's just too fast! Some felt that we over-rehearsed. But in honest opinion, I think we under-rehearsed. Comparing to other previous concerts I performed with TK and MJ, I think VV'08 was one of the concerts that I didn't feel that we practiced so often. Even though we met twice a wk (3x incl sat), it didn't feel so busy. TK and MJ used to have at least 3-4 practices incl sectionals prior to concert! That time was when we really felt that the concert was approaching! VV'08 just came and poofff!! ENDED!
It was a really enjoyable and exhilarating concert even though some parts weren't done to standard. But other than that, I felt the concert was close to perfection! Every one was just so focussed and followed the conductors really closely!
Our opening was great with the Imperial Nelson Mass and our soloists! And even though poor Shushan sprained her ankle and had to perform on a wheelchair, she still wowed the audience with her power voice! And she did all that sitting down! Imagine what it would be if she was standing and supporting even better! WOOTS!! Shushan! You are the best!!
The other soloists did great too!! And I was glad that it didn't bore many people!! Adit did great on the piano too!!
2nd half was even better! The lighting accompanied the songs and brought out the feel and mood. No Zhen, it wasn't suppose to be BLUE MARTIANS!!! It was suppose to make the whole are look calm and serene. Well, I wouldn't know how you all would think it to be coz I didn't see the lighting as a whole. Hehe! But BLUE MARTIANS! That was a cute one! Haha!
Yup, the JAP songs were well done and it was the best renditions we ever did!!
And I really enjoyed Adyll's Latin American pieces and could hear the reverberations as we sang! Some said they felt like getting up to dance to Verano!!
Harris and Glenn did well for their solos :)) And I guess we brought out the feel of the songs just that Bal-laygi was a bit disappointing.
Luk luk was fun :)) I want to do that once again!!
As the concert came to an end, I felt all emo...and especially when we ended with LINDEN LEA...
We went back stage and the conductors - Nelson, Terrence and Adyll spoke to us! They were filled with smiles on their faces and of all praises :)) I am so glad that the concert all in all ended well! :)) We had a family portrait after that! hehe!!
The clearing up took quite a while and I apologise sincerely to those who waited outside for me!! There was NO RECEPTION AT ALL at the changing rooms coz it was at the basement! And so, I was uncontactable ever since 2pm! When I got to the entrance, I had smses telling me I had more than 10 miss calls. hehe! So sorries people!!
I was prancing and jumping as I saw Hungrys + Gim Sen and Huiru, and KXFZs + DI!! And they got me the nicest flowers I ever received this year!! I am sorry for making you girls spend more money on these lovely flowers! But they mean a lot to me and I will forever remember that :)) I even slept with them coz I really had no idea where to put them. Hehe :)
Pink flower from Ziwei, Mich, Zhen and Di :))
Real flowers that are dying in my room...The new addition is from Shushan and Xuefang (my 2 SLs) :)) The red rose with my name on it!
The RED ROSE from Amie, Lixuan, Siao Er and Huiru!! thanks amie for choosing such a pretty flower :) She almost got me the same one as Ziwei they all did!!
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Sobs...Lydia Sum aka Fei fei passed away... :(( she was a talented actress and compare...
It's the CONCERT DAY!!!
WHEEE~~~
NUS Choir Varsity Voices 2008: Temptations
A sell out concert of 780 audience! :)
I am so glad and happy for the tix sales. If I had known more details earlier, I guess we would have done better. But oh well, it's already at this point in time, I guess nothing much can be done. The orders are still coming in :) And if anyone still likes to go down to watch, there are tix at the door for sale. NUS Student gets 15% off ($12.90). Staff 10% and Public at $15. But there are a limited number only!!!
I am so excited for the concert! Though the run through yesterday wasn't fantastic, but I loved the process of it :) AND after SO LONG! I am finally standing next to Ann for almost the whole concert!! :) WHEE!!
I thank Ann for continuously giving me support and love and fun in NUSChoir and I do hope our friendship would last! I neglected her yesterday as I worked with Xianling to settle the tix stuff. But I am so glad she is so understanding :)
And to xianling, thanks loads for your guidance all these while :) I really enjoyed working with you! And I must say ticketing isn't an easy job and I am glad we didn't screw it up (too badly. heheh). But, great job xian~
Thanks to Aaron also for putting so much effort! I have not seen a choir president as hardworking as you ;) And I guess that's the difference between matured uni students and JC/Sec students :) We are no longer showered by the pampers of teachers and we have to handle everything on our own. You did well :)
Thanks to Nadiah also for letting me be the VVSOTF assistant Treasurer :) I really enjoyed myself these few months! And thanks for the encouragement!
Thanks to everyone else who have made my time in NUSChoir so great! i know I am saying this even before the concert! But Yeah! I enjoyed myself so much that I know tonight's concert is going to be a great one :) I love you guys!!
Especially to the Sops who have made singing so enjoyable! Thanks to SS and Xf who have put in so much time and effort in teaching us :) Thanks to Rhoda, Ann, Nick kor, Sheena, Chun Fang, Xian~, NATHALIE (who is forever happy) for all the wonderful time in choir :) If I missed out anyone, it's by accident :)
Thanks to Adyll too :) For tolerating all the nonsense we had. You are a great SC :)
Time to go! It's going to be a long day!
And thanks to my friends who have all so lovingly been there for me :) Thanks to those coming to watch - Ziwei, Lee Chen, Dianne, Mich, Siao Er, Huiru and Lixuan :) Thanks girls! And thanks to those who always been there for me - Mel, Shaz, Az, Sarah (how are you girl!!) and Amelia :)
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Dear Father in Heaven,
I pray that you will keep everyone safe and grant us great health as we grow day by day. Please be with NUSChoir as we present our concert tonight! We have practiced and i know you will know what is best for us :)
Thank you Father for everything you have showered upon us. Forgive us of our sins.
All these I pray in Jesus name,
AMEN
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I am trying to control and not have too high hopes. It's destroying me.
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~PiNkDeLigHts~ To VV'08 :)
9am
4.5 hours of sleep. And yet, I could wake up at the phonecall from Sara and bathe to go for 10am Management Science lecture!! And i stayed awake through the whole lecture! :) I guess I was too tired until I couldn't doze off...
It was a fun lecture anyway :)
Went with Sara to Forum Co-op and got my stationary!!
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1230pm
I was back at biz. I called people on my list for tickets and called the president to update him. No...i smsed and called but no reply. I was suppose to call by 12pm to update him!! When I went back to hall and asked Ferdy online, only then I realised that Aaron had changed his hp number! (or rather he had 2 numbers). Oh well, i got him at the first ring!! Well, the list on my side is settled :)
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I wanna thank the following people for making my stressed day so much more happier :))
Sara - for accompanying me for the earlier lecture and for being such a nonsense person!! And thanks for the vdae present!!
Ann - for accompanying me on the phone this afternoon and listening to all my rants and worries. Thanks loads dearie :) I am so looking forward to VV'08 and Russia with you :)
Harris and KY - for the wonderful lunch at biz! my favourite Chicken Cutlet :) And for all the crap!! And thanks to Harris for listening to my rants too and offering advice :) Thanks to KY for holding through while I complained to Harris. Ah well...I felt really relieved after talking to you guys :) You guys always brighten up my Fridays!! :)
Ferdy - for encouraging me :)
Lixuan - for accompanying me to Vivo to get stuff! And for listening to me rant. Love you loads dearie :)
Wei2 - for always caring :)
Ah well...Looks like I shared my woes to many people!! And I didn't know that...hehe :)
Thanks loads everyone! I guess I'll pull through VV'08 as well as my horrendous presentations next week!!
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Presents from Valentines' Day 2008 :)
The Red Rose was from Stamford (blockhead. Every girl in my block got a red rose :))
The Pink Rose was from Yiwen (my block mate and close friend :))
The Pink heart furry stick thing was from Lixuan and Siao Er :) They made one for every person in the block and I helped to write names on the papers that we attached to it :) They are so sweet girls to think of such sweet stuff :)
The packet of raisins were from Sara who popped by to say hi :)
It's these little things that make block life so fun :)
The hellokitty marshmellow and lollipop were from Nadiah (VP of NUS Choir :))
The cupbiscuit? Whatever you call it, was baked by Michelle Ho :)
The Bear and Pink pouch was from Ann dear :)
It's these little things that make choir so lovely :)
And i met Aifung by chance when I went to Forum to walk yesterday after class! She gave me a precious moments bookmark/tag :) So sweets :) I think she can go and be Precious Moments' salesperson! She gave me a calendar from there too :)
And to many of the smses that I received :)
Thanks to everyone for making my life so loving :)
This is the same picture as above. But I think the above Red Rose looks prettier :)
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I wonder how sarah is doing...
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Choir rehearsal tmr :) Whee!! Its going to be from 12pm to 10pm. So excitttiiinnnnggg!! :)
I want to take many photos so, I am going to sleep soooonnn!! :) LACK OF SLEEEEPPPP!!!
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Be appreciated and be loved :)
SERIOUSLY, LIKE WHY SHOULD I CONTINUE CARING??
It's been so long already and yet, it's not going anywhere!
Not that I am hoping for anything today. But yet, I have been holding on for so, so, so long. It's my own wishful thinking I know but yet, I keep hurting myself time again and again.
Why is it that so many have found their one to spend Valentines' Day with? No, no... I did not look forward to anyone special to spend it with. But maybe just at least show a bit more concern??
But that wouldn't happen unless someone knocks some sense into this person! And will anyone do? No...Not that I think it would be for me.
All I ask for was a small little favour! That was to just talk to me. But I guess we really have nothing else to talk about. And guess that explains why I keep hurting myself.
Many have talked a lot of sense into me which I didn't heed and was bent on keeping this feeling, hoping that he feels the same about me and that one day it would all pay off. It's all stupidity in my words. And what's the point of sacrificing so much time and effort on him when he doesn't reciprocate it?
Don't be stupid girl, he's not worth your time. He's not worth your energy! He's not worth the love.
Like why don't you use this time and effort in your studies? It's not as if you are very free! And yet, you want to take on so many committments! Is this how you treat yourself? Staying out so late and coming back to bathe like in the wee hours of the morning? And sleeping so few hours? IT'S NOT WORTH IT!!
And who knows when he actually likes someone else and you know the girl is definitely not you. Are you going to continue holding on to this thin thread when you know it will snap anytime? I will snap even before anyone tugs it.
Seriously, it's not going anywhere.
Give it up. Don't make your life anymore miserable. Forget it.
Prayed about it and I guess the Father's answer is wait or NO. And I shall slowly make this thought and liking vanish.
I believe that every person would have his own partner and it would come anytime. Just be patient. Even if there isn't, there are friends :)
And I thank Lixuan and Siao Er for making my hall life so lovely :) Thanks for making the heart bookmark dearies! And thanks to Stamford for the lovely Red Rose! And to Yiwen for the sweet Pink Rose :) And to Ann for the pretty pouch :) And to Sara for the raisins :)
Thanks to Sara, Huifang and Yan Ling for making school days so enjoyable :) And for making my Vdae so interesting :)
I am frustrated, depressed and disappointed. But it shan't be for long. I guess I should stop thinking too much. And you know you are in a different world/league from him, so stop trying to get an answer.
I really wished I had someone to talk to just now. And you just had to leave me alone...
It's 3 days to the concert and yet, I don't feel as though it's approaching. Or rather, it's so hap-hazard. It's like, I don't know what's going on kinda feeling. Maybe I don't want it to come. Maybe I don't want the concert to end. Maybe I don't want to move on? Maybe I still want to be singing with the seniors? I have no idea what the future holds for me but I do wish that I didn't have to go through so much.
Am I ready for another chapter of my life?
Am I ready to serve the Choir?
Am I ready to be more than what I used to be?
Am I ready to leave this emotional being?
I guess I have been too disappointed and hurt to cry anymore. I didn't shed a single tear today. I guess it's not worth it.
It's 4am and I am contemplating to wake up at 9 and going for the 10am lecture.
I was planning to be a good girl and go back to hall once choir ended. But yet, I stayed at CFA till 230am. We ended choir at 9pm and collected money all the way till 10pm. And then I was surrounded by the comm and they had their meeting AROUND me! I felt really awkward! But I was already seated there settling the ticket money etc. I simply think too much. Anyway, Xian, Aaron, Huixian and I stayed back to settle the ticketing stuff. And am I amazed that I actually have so much energy to have stayed till 2+am trying to account for all the tickets!
I really admire Aaron! He is a very responsible President! Unlike someone else last time who left me to just think of everything and just open his mouth now and then to show he "cares". But seriously, it's a bigger problem now as compared to last time.
Without them, I guess, it wouldn't have gone through so well :) I am glad at least things are looking great, besides some other discrepancies....
To xian~ I know you read this, I hope you don't jump to the wrong conclusions :) I thank you for all your guidance and hope you would continue to stay strong!! We have 3 more days (+) of ticketing work to do and we are done!! It's been tough! But you have done great! Thanks loads girl :)
Thanks to Huixian and Aaron too :)
Btw, I still have one more ticket on hand. Anyone wants it? If not, I would give it away...
~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Hurt through and through.
I thank Ziwei for opening her house today for zhen, mel and me to gather and catch up!! Thanks for bringing KXFZ together once again =) well, mich was busy visiting people so we missed her.
Anyway, we had sushi for dinner but didn't really eat much coz was so full from the other goodies and sumptuous lunch at yi poh's house earlier. KXFZ had a wonderful time chatting over CUPS of Green tea =) seriously, it was better than going outside to eat and chat! And Ziwei almost sacrificed her artist's hands while she lighted the never-be-blown-off candles! And it was really hot! Yes..I remember the time we had at Shaz's bdae where her tiramisu cake became...
Ah... lizhen didn't learn her lesson...But it was really thoughtful of them! :)
Thanks KXFZ for celebrating my birthday with a nice strawberry cheesecake!! Simplicity is still the best!!
And we caught up on many things! Well, guess we couldn't talk much when a guy (ziwei's bro) is around yea! hehe! but it was alright! It was a censored conversation :)
I felt loved :)
Dearies, I want to grow old with you girls :)
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And I am so happy mich is going for my concert!!
michelle says: (11:52:25 PM)
i just grab from you
michelle says: (11:52:30 PM)
when i see you in school next week
michelle says: (11:52:32 PM)
chope one for me!
of coz, I am happy that these people are also going for the NUS Choir concert!!
Lizhen, Ziwei, Dianne, Lixuan, Siao Er, Huiru, Amelia!! :)
And many others!!
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The pics would be uploaded by zhen in her blog or kxfz's blog. Zhen, you better not close your blog. coz i always redirect to your blog for pics :)
It's been a wonderful new year so far :) And if I do have the time and the pics, I would blog again. Chances of me doing that - low. So, don't wait. hehe!
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I've sorta sorted out my thoughts and plans for the next few weeks. I'll be fine :)
I'll take it as it comes! Coz I'd rather have a friend then lose one.
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~pInkDeLiGhTs~ Friends are the bestest things :)
Just a quick one.
SICK.
Or rather, going to fall sick...
Shivering from the cold and feeling heavy headed.
And it's going to be a long evening with loads of fun in choir!
That's if I don't collapse halfway.
I am so sleepy...
3 hours, 3 conductors, 1 happy choir :)
I HOPE!!
And I hope I don't screw up the ticketing stuff again.
JIA YOU!
Will blog more later.
Just in case I don't blog later...
Especially wanna thank Weirdz for the wonderful surprise on Fri! :) It's really EXTRAORDINARY!
What would life be without such great friends :)
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Struggling to keep up with my work...15 hours of webcast behind...