1-Litre of Tears
Thanks to Lizhen who told me about this a million times!
Happy 2009 to everyone!
Lots of Love,
Rachel
I just have to be hit by news that I didn't want to know if I didn't have to know.
It's like showing that your friendship is worth more than my friendship with that same person.
Stop it ok! Coz I don't want to know what you are going to do with that person and that that person invites you out and you are going to have a very good time, and still ask how come I'm not invited or there when others are.
I'm trying to get myself out of this quicksand. But each time, I get pulled back in with having to overcome all these news that is hit at me. I am giving in a lot of courage and strength by stopping myself and changing this whole relationship and mindset that I have. So stop pulling me back into this dilemma and emotional state again.
I don't want to know. If this is your way of making yourself better then go ahead. But do it to others who have no concern at all coz you're hurting me. Do it to someone else who treats this person like a friend and no others. I'm still trying. So don't hurt me further.
Sometimes I just wish I didn't start it. Or didn't have feelings at all. Coz I know no matter how hard I try, I need a very long time to pull myself out of it. Emotions get the better of me. And though I know the two of you won't work out, I just don't like the fact that you click better with this person more than me. Or are you just showing off. Coz I do have times where I think I can show off too but I just don't.
I hate this feeling...
I'll be home for Christmas...
NOT...
I'll be at Shangri-La hotel : )
Will be caroling there from 12pm to 930pm.
Have been having a really busy week. And I can't believe that everything is ending tomorrow!!! Preparation started in May, confirmations and invitations along the way! And now, performance is over!
I really enjoyed myself for the past few days : ) Singing in different positions, learning how to adapt to situations, memorising carols!! Whew! It's been one exciting week!
I found out through this course that people find me worried and stressed over things. But in actual fact, I'm not. Hmm...do I just have the default worried feel?
It's been great working on this project : ) VV'09 is the next big thing up!!
It's been great working with Nad, Mich and Harris too. And I really marvel at Nad for taking up such a heavy responsibility role. It's not easy being a president!! And she doubles up as a conductor : )
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The impromptu and really last min decided meetup with Ziwei and zhen was really fun : )
I met Ziwei after my caroling and we went to Starbucks at Millenia Walk. I had some meatloaf patty thing and a White Chocolate Mocha with Coffee base. YUMMY : ))
The conversation with Ziwei was rather mean. But not really personally mean. Heheh!! Ziwei you know i don't mean it : ) I was really glad we met up! Coz i think the next time I see you will be at airport, seeing you off : (
And meeting Zhen and eating her pizza lighted up my heart : ) Friend, you can bake!! HEHE : )))
And walking around Suntec's Fountain of Wealth with Precious Moments statues reminds me how precious you girls are to me : )
It's been a long day!
Hilton at 3pm
Forum at 5pm
Conrad at 730pm.
Of all these places, I love Conrad the most : ) Coz I love standing in quartet!
Last night, Glenn was on my left and Huaizhi on my right. My left ear was gone.
Today, Huaizhi to my left and GABRIEL to my right! His HO HO HO MERRRY CHRISTMAS made me deaf in the right ear.
I just pray for everything to go smoothly tmr.
And may I have a good voice. A few more days of caroling!
A Fri afternoon at home. How weird. With Little Nonya and Hello Kitty!!
Nad told me there's HELLO KITTY on a show which I never knew they did!
Well, to think when everyone has plans to go out after the performance at University Hall, I didn't. I didn't even know where I wanted to go. Arranged to meet Ziwei for dinner coz I didn't want to be home alone for the night. But well, she's sick and I guess should let her rest more. And I thought I would be ok but the flu is beginning to get worse now.
The performance at Uni-hall today went well! The sops were just a little under. I was sniffing and kinda down with a little flu. Yet I still sang. I seriously shouldn't have. 1 bad singer requires 3 good singers to cover up....I'm sorry!!
and I'm thinking if I should sing tmr...there are enough people for tmr. I must get well in time for tmr night at Conrad. It's going to be Close book!! And I really hope I can remember the lyrics.
It's going to be a hectic day tmr with 4 shows from 1pm to 830pm.
Here's our performance schedule for tmr.
1pm - Marina Square
3pm - Hilton Shopping Gallery
5pm - Forum Shopping Mall
730pm - Conrad Centennial Hotel
Do stay and listen if you happen to be in those areas ok!
I'm going to rest.
May the flu be gone..
I'm at Ah Ma, Ah Kong's house : )
It's been a great day!
Stayed in hall overnight coz there was CD burning session yesterday and I was tooo lazy to go back home.
Spent the afternoon watching Heroes Season 1 with Ames : ) It's a freaky show and I was glad I watched it with someone. I probably would be eeking out if I watched alone! Ah..but Ames has got me started and hooked onto it now!
Left for grandparents place with da xiang (who was on the way to Vivo) about 520pm and we took 30. Silly me thought 30 goes to behind TKGS that bus stop so that I can change to (many buses to choose from). But I was wrong! I dozed off on the bus and good thing woke up in time to alight earlier! If not, I think I'll be sitting all the way to Bedok!
Went Parkway Parade shopping with Ah Ma and said Hi to bimbo as WE caroled. Did lots of walking and shopping, which I really did not want to buy. But Ah Ma just said buy!! And no matter how I tried to stop her, she and the other 2 shop assistants refused to stop me from agreeing.
Just managed to Skype with Mum and Dad! They look like they are really enjoying themselves in Paris! Maybe not enjoying coz of scenery etc..but I think them having each other as company is good enough for them :)
I'm happy :)
Alright! Ciao~
I had a depressing night.
But a wonderful day.
Yes...a depressing night.
I shouldn't have asked. Knowing too much now is taking a toll on me. Again.
I never learn.
Teach me! someone!
To keep myself from knowing too much.
Tell me how to pull myself away from this pain in me.
The ones who light up my life like the stars in the sky...
I hope I'll move on...
Jie is here to stay for the night. yea..after all that cleaning up i did last night and mum did this afternoon. Hehe!
But yea, I'm happy to have her over.
As at most sleepovers, we had a little chat that lasted about 2 hours...it just ended not too long ago..
It was quite a emotional conversation. We had pockets of time that we would start being teary and soured but it didn't flow out.
Seeing her go through this tough period and emotional attachments, I'm worried...
Much as i have been thinking that I'll take my time, I'm still young...don't worry...
But now...as people have been asking and talking about it, I am thinking...
I won't succumb to pressure. That's for sure. I'll take it as it comes. But I just can''t help thinking about it.
I pray for her. I pray for myself... I pray for all who need love...
Well, this world needs love.
One thing assuring that came out of the conversation is that: God will lead us and guide us. He will provide a way.
And there are so many people in this same situation. I'm sure I'll pull through.
I'm sure I'll find the right guy.
And I'm happy to have found out and shared something that has been troubling me for a long time.
Thank you jie.
OO I just have to share this!!
They are the Mormon Tabernacle Choir!! Soooo many of them and the orchestra is big! I want to be part of something like that!!!
And Climb Every Mountain just brings back the days of in the choir in Primary school, where we all hated the accidentals and the beginning. But now, I'm loving this : )
And for those who love Spongebob! hahahah!
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Ok, been on Facebook and Youtube the whole morning. The freaking iPhoto refused to upload my pics to facebook and keeps quitting "unexpectedly"! I expected it though. Anyone have an idea why it's like this??? Uploading through facebook reduces the quality and colour of the pics. Don't like >.<
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1 paper down yesterday. 3 more to go!
I CAN DO THIS!!
first of all..i need to stay away from the computer...
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Count down: 1 week!!!!
I'm starting my 3rd major exam in NUS in 2.5 hours time.
ACC1006 - Accounting Information Systems.
Wish me luck.
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I'm already looking forward to the end of exams.
At the end of today's exams, I'm going back to hall to pick up stuff and see my dearies in hall!! It's been more than a week since I've seen them!! : )
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If only studying can be addictive.
So awesome!!
No no..not the singing and the attempts to harmonize. But the family spirit they have! Wow! Imagine my family going to compete! hehehe >.<
I guess its the innovation and novelty of the competition. Just something soothing and different : )
OO and this is the week after the Umbrella show. Hmm...not well done. But the guys playing the violin are cool at 2:38.
Read more about them here.
And as I was just searching around.. I found this!!
its the great-grandchildren of the Von Trapp family that we watched about in Sound of Music! Awww... : )
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Ok. Study time.
I'm back at home : )
And I'm loving this study period!
Loving Mummy's cooking and her tender loving care!
Jogging with Dad this morning was fun :) Yes!! I JOGGED!
I am going to the sleep at 12am and waking up at 8am regime. Just that I slept at 2am last night coz was settling some choir stuff. But well, I WOKE UP! And we are going to continue to go for morning jogs together : ) At least for these 2 weeks.
I feel refreshed! And ready for the new day ahead! I must finish AIS today!
It's a week away and I'm not stressed at all! It's probably coz of the crunch time of assignments and test last few weeks that I hadn't had time to study. And now that I get time on my own, I'm taking it cool : )
Well, I hope not too COOL. I need to finish studying!
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Talking to Ben on Facebook chat last night was funny : )
It all started with us realising we have Justina as a common friend! First was Jun! Well, the world is small. And especially when you are in uni that your friends just are everywhere. Who knows, LC, you may know Ben too! HAHA!
We started complaining about school and exams...topics changed really fast! But I guess we are all going through the similar stages of life that we do have loads to share : )
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Even though I'm loving being back at home, I do miss a bit of hall life. Yes, Siao Er, I miss you!
And I miss neighbour! And I miss LIX!! But well, it's something I have to give up for the sake of exams. I'll be back sooon my dears!! : )
And I miss studying like last sem...outside with the Harris and the other choir people.
Well, these people will slowly walk out of my school life as they go SEP, graduate etc...I must get to a study-on-my-own lifestyle. At least I have Huifang : )
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Ok! Back to my books!!
All the best everyone!
Loves,
~PiNkDeLiGhTs~
Yes...I've got the shooting down. I'd rather it be tonight then any other time.
I've noted my incompetency and lack of foresight.
The AAR was harsh...
I'll take note and learn from it.
And I hope it won't continue to be the talk of the committee.
Sometimes, I feel my brain just doesn't help me in thinking...
Stop working on feelings.
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And it had to happen when my exams is later at 4pm...
Alright, I must admit that I have been rather moody, uptight and stressed these days. And this isn't reflecting well on me. I won't wait for people to tell me that. I know it myself.
For the don't-know-how-many-times in my life, I screwed up again.
Redbull came today. Please don't tell me it's not my fault. I should have been more assertive and "zh3u guan1". Like know when to do what. I shouldn't have taken other people's suggestion. And in the end, making things more difficult for myself.
I should have kept the motivation for asking the redbull girls down in my mind. But what was I doing???? Trying to please so many people. And in the end, compromising on my part. I'm sorry KR. I'm sorry for making you all coming down for dinner so early and in the end the girls weren't there. I'm sorry for being the nice girl and trying to juggle everything.
The girls were there really early at 520pm but yet, I kept changing instructions and asked them to give out to the concert goers for Y2J that is held in hall now. I thought of keeping them there first coz there were people around waiting for the concert and the dinner crowd hadn't come in. but when the Y2J crowd starting coming in, the dinner crowd came in too!! We changed plan and asked 1 to stay upstairs and 1 to go downstairs. but many residents left alr. so not all got it!! Well, but if I asked both to go down, would we have missed the upstairs group and gave out even lesser cans?
I don't know why I am so concerned about how many cans they are giving out. But I think if I asked them to bring more, I should have the responsibility to ensure I have the crowd there. Well, I guess it's just a timing issue. on one hand, I didn't "breach contract" coz it's true that they gave out more than 150. However, if just having our own residents, would we have seen such a crowd??
Let me have another chance. I promise I won't be bothered by other things when the main aim is for the welfare of the residents. I'll handle it better and more objectively.
On a happier note, the welfare team acknowledged Pius and I for our efforts : )
And Soon Fatt is proud of me : )
[C-AP5] Kelvin IS STRONGER! says: (7:39:20 PM)
gd job! :)
[C-AP5] Kelvin IS STRONGER! says: (7:39:27 PM)
told ya tt u've got the touch liao
[NUSChoir] [Flag-ger 08/09] Xianie. says: (7:39:35 PM)
your guidance ma : )
[C-AP5] Kelvin IS STRONGER! says: (7:40:42 PM)
hahaha i din do much la.. i juz throw u in the water and make sure u survive.. den eventually u learn how to float urself
[C-AP5] Kelvin IS STRONGER! says: (7:40:44 PM)
like now :)
[C-AP5] Kelvin IS STRONGER! says: (7:41:06 PM)
coz marketing it's abt getting the touch.. den it's ez liaoz... wun be as intimidating as wat pple perceive
[C-AP5] Kelvin IS STRONGER! says: (7:41:10 PM):D
People are actually happy that Redbull came down and asked me to get them back again. But it depends...
Ok..I need to start studying...EXAM TMR!!!
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Trust.
Scram off.
You can't make it, fine.
You are busy, fine.
BUT, DON'T USE THE EXCUSE THAT YOU HAVE TO STUDY TO SHUN AWAY THE RESPONSIBILITY!
I don't mind going down to do the collection. However, if you can't make it, can you just say you cannot make it? I won't question why. I'll just take it that you can't make it.
Maybe you were being honest, like your nature tells you that you should let your friend know why. And then you tell me you have things to do as well as study!!
Please, the last part pushed me off the corner of the rock! I need to study too! And so what if your exams are coming up and starting before mine?? It's only 2 days earlier than mine!! And I have a final term test on Fri and project due on Sat! And you are telling me that you can't go coz you need to study? And you sure know that I have time to go down! Doesn't it cross your mind that it's not my project! I was nice enough to get the things for you and this freaking comm! And the other person announces to the other comm that he got it??? Can't he just mention my name or at least just say that the Marketing Comm got it instead of him? Just coz he is the ic of it??
Fine, I'm not complaining! I will do this. And I'm fine with doing it. Just that I don't like the freaking excuses given. Coz it doesn't help when I have to study and yet juggle so many things!
PLEASE! Let me put down whatever else I have to do to just concentrate on my studying for exams!!!
I have to learn to be selfish!
I need to learn to say NO!!!
I was in a whirlpool of emotions today.
Tried being my cheerful self. But I just can't. Too tired I guess. And too tired of so many nonsense that I have to take care of. And it doesn't help when the others don't help and yet tell you so many freaking nonsense.
I want to be happy again...
URGH!!
This is one time that I really want to study!!!!
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PISSED OFF.
8pm
Great... I thought I was being very hardworking and signed up for this presentation and leadership course by 3 toastmasters alumni. And I must admit it was due to peer pressure that I ended up here. And now, the few who asked me to come are not coming anymore...cheated do I feel?
Sometimes I think this course is good, but sometimes I don't think it is. I feel really stressed coming here. There's like so many other things to do back in my room and yet, here, I give in 3 hours every tuesday (frankly speaking, this is the only 4th lesson I'm here). The 3 instructors are contradicting themselves and arguing as we do our work. And criticizing using a really mean tone. I am like glaring at them so often.
And I hate the fact that they force us to do a speech. urgh..i should have known...
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820pm
Alright, I just presented and wow!! They didn't have much to say. Not like the last few people which they had a lot to comment about.
ok, imagine I am a CEO of a Tuition Centre
Vision
To impart knowledge to those who seek help.
To provide an avenue to develop each staff and student's potential to the fullest.
To establish a professional organization with responsible and initiative members.
Mission
The organization strives to provide each student and staff with a conducive environment for self-improvement and learning opportunities.
The students would be given chances to groom them into future leaders of tomorrow.
Furthermore, as a responsible organization, there is a need to develop the students and staffs to contribute back to society as much as they can.
Just that the older man said: "Huh! How old are the students you are referring to?"
me: JC, Uni students
man: HUH? You mean they are so useless ah?? So old already still go for tuition!
me: why not?! *ROLLS EYES!!*
other man and woman: Yah! They still have tuition! For GP and other things...
me: Yah! Like CHINESE and MATHS also!
man: Oh yah...those school of thought...ok, if its jc, uni then i think it's ok...nurture to become leaders..
me: Well, even if it were young kids, I can develop them and start them from young!
man: NO NO...From the young age! There'll be terror!!
Oh man..I just stood there rolling my eyes..i guess I looked like some b**** in front of the class. Good thing the other 2 of them said it was good. And that there is no ambiguity. Well, smart of me to choose something not so specific! haha!!
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835pm
Break time..but I guess I'll go out a little bit later...
9pm
ok..i went out for the food. and talked with the group about politics and the US elections. I must say the 3 instructors do have some knowledge and they are critical about things. It's a good learning point at least.
I enjoyed the break coz I understood what they said : )
oh dear...we are going to do a speech...haiz...I hate this word..
955pm
Alright, I've done my speech. Content was good. Words used were good. Just repeated a few words. Need to use more impressive and stronger words. Oh well...i'll improve on those!
And I didn't realise my posture was so weird! I was slanting a little to the right. Take note!! : )
Ok...battery is running out!!
And class is ending : )
bye all!
Loves,
~PiNkdeLiGhTs~
I'm in the Biz Library Seminar Room now trying to complete the AIS project.
The air here is stale.
And my brain is losing oxygen.
The 5 hours of sleep last night is making things worse.
I want to sleep but I can't coz my other group mates are here doing the project...
Oh...let me have some time to sleep later...
I'm looking forward to the weekend and holiday but not to the amount of work due next week.
(And if you noticed, the pics at the previous post is soooo big, thanks to Juat's suggestion of uploading pics faster!)
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~
DO I MAKE YOU PROUD
[Verse One:]
I've never been
The one to raise my hand
That was not me
And now that's who I am
Because of you
I am standing tall
My heart is full
Of endless gratitude
You were the one
The one to guide me through
Now I can see
And I believe
It's only just beginning
[Chorus:]
This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
[Verse Two:]
I guess I’ve learned
To question is to grow,
That you still have faith,
Is all I need to know,
I’ve learned to love,
Myself in spite of me,
And I’ve learned to
Walk on the road I believe.
Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved
To be loved
Everybody need to rise on
Everybody needs to be loved, to be loved
This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you, do I make you proud
This is what we dream about
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Do I make you proud
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I'm addicted to this thanks to Harris : )
I'm really looking forward to performing it!!
Loves,
~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ I'm proud of you, Harris : )
For the first time in 3 weeks, I finally managed to get a night of 9 hours of sleep! I couldn't take it last night and went off to bed at 12am!! And was awoken by the telephone call.
Every night has been sleep at 3,4 am and wake up at 8,9 am. What a terrible lifestyle. And last night, I started dozing off at my presentation preparation, which I had to push it to today to finish coz presentation was in the afternoon!
The MA presentation went all smoothly and we finished class 45 mins before time! : ) Thanks to Yue Jia, Ling Long, Kimberlyn, Hui Fang and Wai Yip for being such great MA group mates! I'm glad we managed to work together to complete these 2 presentations! :)
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Voice class was good :) Uncle Toh got us to learn about airflow and making our sounds less jagged. We used 5 Hebrew Love Songs tenors and sops parts :) I am loving VV'09 now!!!
Choir practice was even better! Sectionals were so so...with struggles of learning "Do I Make You Proud". Yes!! I am very glad that we are learning this song. Not heard of it before till Xianling told us it's by Taylor Hicks!! And so, it's on my iMeem on and on and on..But I am looking forward to performing this song : ) Well done Harris on the arrangement of songs : )
Uncle Toh took us for combines. For the first time, I sat down for 1+ hr of choir practice! He refused to let us stand up till we were ready to combine! Haha! For once we were all aching and hoping of standing up!!
Combines was great!! : )
After comm meeting and packing up, Juat, Harris, Michyyeoh, PeiSuen, Adit and myself stayed back to play around with the piano. Adit's hands are just fabulous! He just played the piano part for DIMYP with the choral score and waaalllaaa : ) The accompaniment!! He rocks!!
Supper after that at Holland V! And Halloween hunting for some stuff after that : ) Next Thur's is HALLOWEEN PARTY for NUS Choir!! :)
Thanks Michyyeoh for the ride back! You must be tired driving the whole bunch of us back to NUS!
And I'm the new addition to the lala family! The lala parents just decided to adopt me! haha!! Bimbo Juat! Haha!!
Do I Make You Proud..
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Sleepy Harris and I while waiting for the organisers.
The stage would be just under the projector screen.
And with the person in charge of us for that day, JASON.
Think again if you find him familiar : )
After the recee, Harris and I went to Novena for lunch. Met Nadiah there for lunch too and we walked to United Square for Ben and Jerry's :)
I had Strawberry Cheesecake, Nad had Cheesecake Brownie and Harris had Chocolate Chip DOUGH! Yes, it tasted like FLOUR!
I had a great time :) And I'm really glad that I could go for the recee. And learn a bit about event planning. Most IMPORTANT THING! To have a clear mind and know what exactly we want. And how we can make the best out of it. A tough decision to make but it was necessary.
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:)
~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ TOTALLY PROUD AND HAPPY!
This was supper treat bought by Weewen, my new laoban, for last night's first official meeting with my other Marketing Executive, Piuzy : )
We had a wonderful 2.5 hour meeting but it was great :) I am looking forward to a fantastic working relationship with them! Especially since Piuzy has been my project group mate for 1 year or 3 sems already, I'm sure we'll do well!
I've much to learn from this experienced guy and I think it's going to be a good year if not better!
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Yes Ziwei!! 5 Hebrew Love Songs! The one we loved so much but didn't get to finish learning and not even being able to perform it! A pity you can't join us :( And I don't think you'll be around in Singapore to even watch my concert right?
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I'm done with my SOM essay : ) But it's 200 words over the limit!! 800 max but I have 1000! To think I thought I would just crap something out. Well, writing about 11 Oct's charity concert, I realised I do look out for quite a bit of things during the concert! And how appreciation of the concert does not just happen at the surface but also the inner feelings.
Next up in SOM is the MIDI which I haven't started at all! HOW??!!
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And this weekend just passed like this. Stayed back in hall yesterday to complete much. But feels like I didn't. Yesterday was spent doing SS research for the report. And did MIS tutorial. After that going for the meeting. And coming back doing some tidying up...sleeping at 3am and amazingly managed to wake up at 7am to go to church!
But the effect took place in this afternoon where my productivity level was really low and didn't do much besides sorting out my notes. And sleeping for an hour before waking up for dinner and watching a bit of TV. The 7pm show on Channel8 - Relentless Justice, was really depressing today with the main character hitting the dumps down low and making people wonder how he has all that courage and strength to face such horrendous setbacks.
Well...Time to get back to my books and prepare for Thurs' tutorial presentation discussion...and complete some assignments...I WILL PULL THROUGH!! I KNOW I WILL!!
All the best everyone!
~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ whoever said uni was easier than jc??
I've really no energy and time to blog seriously about the many things that have happened for the past few months.
Given the many exciting things that happened during the mid sem break in Sept and all the meetings/outings/foooood/buffets with hallmates (ame, lix, se, ethel, lean!) and of coz WEIRDZ :)
Didn't get to meet up with KXFZ (10 Oct) coz of the preparation for the charity concert the next day. It was really tiring performing at the charity concert, especially singing in Jubilee Hall.
Have been going through like lots of emotion ups and downs and I guess next few weeks is going to be worse with all the project and individual assignments due which I haven't started on.
Supper with the flaggers (zh, jel, henry, xb and gs) just now was really fun! Esp meeting them to relieve a little stress. : )
And the small msn chat that i had with ex-laoban last night was really great! I really thank him and appreciate all that he has done for me and taught me the past year! And he gave me the encouragement that I think will keep me going on this coming year! Yes, I took on the job of the Hall's Marketing Executive again this year and it's going to be really tough. I want to do more and even more than last year! Lao ban said don't need to make up for last year coz we did really well and listed the things that we got for hall! I didn't think it was that good but alright, presentable : )
And this year has to be better knowing that I have a great partner : )
The comm applications for hall this year really drove many of us nuts. At least not for me. Since I already know I don't want to join so many things. But I didn't know how naive I was to think that everything would be done transparently. 1 year of being in hall, it makes me realise...
And worse thing that happened again tonight is when SE didn't get the survey slot but I got it, when she is the one who recommended me to it! And when I sent it in later than her! Isn't it first come first serve??? This is the 2nd time now!! It's really not fair and I'm upset at that.
Haiz...why didn't she get it..then things will be ok. I really feel like giving up my place to her now...
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Choir was really fun just now with Terrence coming down to combine 5 Hebrew Love Songs : ) Learnt it in sec school but only till the 3rd movement. I'm so excited about it like finally being able to combine and perform it :)
People!! I'm starting to promote Varsity Voices 2009 : ) 21st February 2009, Sat, UCC Hall : )
And comm meeting was also SUPER FUN! We've got something up our sleeves : ) WHeeeee!!
I hate to say this but when it comes to times of stress and trouble and unhappiness, I really enjoy choir! I guess this is one of the other reasons that I come to Choir - to meet likeminded people and get crazy together and be of comfort to one another!
Thanks Fellow Bimbo for bringing up that idea : ) YOU ROCK!! :) I really hope it goes well!
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I'm going to sleep...It's been this kind of timing that I am going into lala land every night... And I'm surprised I managed to keep awake for my 3 2hours tutorials today, with 1 seeming like an impromtu presentation and the other a prepared presentation. 2presentations in a day!! What an achievement!
Alright, I better have some quiet time tmr so that I can finish up any leftover things and prepare for my 2 presentations next week! Oh yah, for the record, I had 3 presentations this week. And I need to write the letter to my future self which everyone in the fun comm has handed in but me...sorry mich! I know you're reading this...but I really have no time to talk to myself. And i really want to do it up nicely coz it's my letter to myself :)
Thanks for initiating it :)
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Loves loves loves...
Tmr will be a better day :)
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~
Go the Distance / No Importa La Distancia
Loving this after hearing AJChoir sing the Spanish version last night at the Charity Concert : )
I have often dreamed
Of a far off place
Where a hero's welcome
Would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I'm meant to be
I'll be there someday
I can go the distance
I will find my way
If I can be strong
I know ev'ry mile
Will be worth my while
When I go the distance
I'll be right where I belong
Down an unknown road
To embrace my fate
Though the road may wander
It will lead me to you
And a thousand years
Would be worth the wait
It may take a lifetime
But somehow I'll see it through
And I won't look back
I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track
No I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope
But I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance
And my journey is complete
But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart
Like a shooting star
I can go the distance
I will search the world
I will face its harms
I don't care how far
I can go the distance
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...
I will search the world
I will face its harms
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...
Una vez sone
Que en algun lugar
Yo podia ser alguien
Si lograse amar
Y tambien sone
Que si he de triunfar
Mi orgullo aferrado
Tendre que superar
Un dia llegare
No importa la distancia
El rumbo encontrare
Y tendre valor
Paso a paso ire
Y persistire
A cualquier distancia
Yo el amor alcanzare
Una vez te vi
Era todo irreal
Y aunque fuese un sueno
Te sentia junto a mi
Se que estas ahi
Que te encontrare
Aunque tarde una vida
Yo jamas renunciare
Un dia llegare
No importa la distancia
El rumbo encontrare
Y tendre valor
Paso a paso ire
Y persistire
A cualquier distancia
Yo el amor alcanzare
Mas alla de toda gloria
Del orgullo y el valor
El poder de un heroe
Esta en su corazon
Un dia llegare
No importa la distancia
Junto a ti estare
Con tu resplandor
Paso a paso ire
Y persistire
A cualquier distancia
Yo tu vida y tu amor tendre.
When life is full of ups and downs...
Yes, I've learnt another lesson today. Life lesson I must say. Not experienced by me, but by my close friend in hall. And with other examples and thoughts by my fellow flaggers...
Seriously, what's life without friends?
Is a boyfriend necessary?
But a horrible boyfriend?
After seeing much from them, I really wonder if that kind of pain is worth going through? And whether we should think so much? Human feelings are such that it just can't be swiped off the shoulder so easily. And when someone gets hurt, the pain and sorrow stays.
But what others are looking at is just a momentarily time of fun and companion. Why think so much??
Life goes on... when one gets hurt and another thinks about him/herself.
And it's not the first time, it's over and over again. But still, the girl can't give up.
And the guy just goes on causing emotional stress and no sign of understanding.
And the girl's friends just hates this guy for the emotional rollercoaster ride he takes the girl on.
Friends, please be careful. No matter what other guys think like "why think so much? Have fun!", they are the ones having fun. Not you! Your emotions won't take it so easily. And when it sinks further, life isn't going to be good for a while after that...
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After an early end of choir practice, I was back in hall at 945pm! the earliest since eons ago! And I thought I would just end up in my room, mugging and clearing work. But I found myself in Weewen's room chatting. And then Ethel and Amelia came by. We started on the topic of the financial crisis that's going on now. And I'm glad for the accountant friend who keeps his mind on these issues. (Saved me the trouble of reading the papers and articles!) And we went through some pressing life issues that we may face.
1030pm, I went back to my room, got ready to shower, but a friend was going through an emotional rollercoaster ride...So, it was another hr with her. I must say that the things that she is undergoing is educational. And true, what my AIS lecturer said, "Learn from mistakes. But don't commit them to learn. Learn from other people's mistakes. They are free."
So, it was a night of understanding boys and army.
And more when I met up with Kelvin, Zhu, Ww, Jel, Henry and Kenny for supper at Sheares. (The usual 1am Flag supper gathering at Sheares every Thurs.) More news and sharings. and it continued as we sat at the lobby.
Thoughts that never went through the mind.
Thoughts that you never thought your own friends would be experiencing...
Thoughts.
Thoughts.
And more Thoughts.
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ And I thought for once I could sleep early...
DND later : ) Theme for my table this year is Rugrats. I wonder how it'd turn out...
The school term has started and officially starting to kill me softly.
As I do every single tutorial, I have been ponning lectures though. I have skipped at least 6 lectures already but 5 lectures have webcasts. So, I officially missed only 1 lecture. Even so, I sleep in most of the Managerial Accounting lectures... what difference does it make?
But still, I'm taking it well. Tutorial presentation went well on Thurs with great group members and I'm sure we'll do well for the next one too! After the presentation, the tutor said, "Hmm, Rachel, you have a nice voice yah! You should join the choir. I'm sure you can sing very well!" Does that all justify why I'm in choir? :)
And I've made new friends coz of tutorials group work. And found a transport to CFA every thursday for this sem. No more squeezing the bus and wondering if I'll get to CFA on time. Oh..but that is if he goes that way every thurs. But still, I'm glad for this new friend!
And many more little things along the way, like Lix still helping me to take breakfast, friends still asking me if I need lunch, dinner...helping me to do so many things...
And for the wonderful seniors supper we had on Thurs, that I was able to lead the E block song :) Just that many weren't able to sing it coz I started too high...As Gim Sen always complains...I must learn to start songs lower. JiaMinh and Cherry did a great job! Well done :)
And for the exciting JCRC rallies esp Weewen who answered the Q&A well! And is now the 29th JCRC Finance Director with 90.4% votes of confidence! Friend, I'm proud of you! And I am looking forward to working with you! (If it does happen.)
And for the sinful but fun flag suppers we have, making everyone so envious of us as we have prearranged suppers without having to remind. It's a great catchup session for all of us and to continue keeping the bond strengthened. It was a great comm to be in : )
I recently have been making so many plans but really wonder if I'll get down to it. I'm going to pursue my piano theories again. No particular reason but for the love of music. I really miss the days of studying theory. Maybe The Science of Music module is lighting up the passion again!
The Youth Gospel meeting started yesterday with Tim's debut sermon. It was great! And there are more guys up next! Jia you Willy, Eugene and Sean!
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it's another weekend of not studying...
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~pinkdelights~ i can't wait : )
Things are suppose to be slowing down for me. But I just see myself picking up more and more things. Not by choice but coz of school.
The main aim of coming to Uni is to learn and to get a certificate which will entitle me or rather enable me to get a job easily. However, that mindset of mine has changed over the year. Or did I even start with that mindset?
The toastmasters class last night showcased various topics from general issues to personal issues to the arts, to the sciences...and it set me thinking for a long time. Have I been missing out on many things and many people?
True, I have neglected my family, my friends. We have all changed so much over the year that the priorities have also changed. I no longer speak to my parents as often. And as someone's topic last night was about "what about your parents?", set me thinking where are my parents in my plans. And the same goes for my grandparents and many others...
I'm considering the next step for me. I don't wish to let go of anything that I have done and I want to carry on. Listening to Doris speech last night, why because of other's comments that you stop yourself from going far?
I have an answer already, but yet, I am still thinking and trying to get other answers. Why? Because of insecurity. I am just unsure of the future.
But this is enough an encouragement :)
(li) NoB0dy @s SeRn @s MeE +o( (̅_̅_̅_̅(̲̲̲̲̲̅̅̅̅̅̅(̅_̅_̲̅V̲̅i̲̅c̲̅t̲̅o̲̅r̲̅i̲̅a̲̅_̅_̲̅C̲̅h̲̅o̲̅r̲̅a̲̅l̲̅e̲̅̅_̅_̅_̅() (li) says: (10:38:16 AM)
i felt that it was good also, esp during the holidays when u were so blur at the beginnign and then eventually u struggled and managed to put things in perspective...
(li) NoB0dy @s SeRn @s MeE +o( (̅_̅_̅_̅(̲̲̲̲̲̅̅̅̅̅̅(̅_̅_̲̅V̲̅i̲̅c̲̅t̲̅o̲̅r̲̅i̲̅a̲̅_̅_̲̅C̲̅h̲̅o̲̅r̲̅a̲̅l̲̅e̲̅̅_̅_̅_̅() (li) says: (10:39:03 AM)
the coy will not recognise it, but with that kind of skills learnt and experience gained, it will bring u far.......
And I think this is one experience that no internship can earn me :)
Thank you Kent Ridge Hall for your support!
Love,
PiNkDeLiGhTs
The 2nd week to the start of the new semester and academic year has ended. And till to date, there are 4 tutorials due next week! 2 mods uploaded just yesterday! And i thought I could have a good weekend. Oh well, it's time to really get down to studying!
Anyway, here's my timetable! It's not that packed. There are 2 tutorials with alternating weeks! Woohoo!! And ACC1006 is half sem the first timing and 2nd half of the sem the 2nd timing. But, ACC2002 is 2 hours a week :((
I just hope the accounting mods won't kill me. Coz I really like the lectures so far! I just hope it's not the appetizers only and give me a plate full of chilli and spices later on...
Here's my timetable!
Sorry guys...if I can't meet you all for lunches this sem. It's really horrendously packed and I think my whole week will be spent with biz best coursemates ever Huifang and Sara...
Looking forward to a wonderful sem!! :)
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Impromptu volleyball game with Jiaminh, Lix, Huluz, Minyi, Mark and Andy was really fun :) With just the ball flying around, it seems really easy to play. But when the real game starts, it's just too hard to score. And I haven't played a real game so far! I hope to be put down on court next Fri for the IBG volley game. But I'm just wondering if they would. And I do really do funny stuff on court...But if it's all for fun : )
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The weather is really nice to sleep but bad for laundry...My clothes have been washed at least 2 times before I can wear them. That's coz it's been raining so often that when I hang out, it gets wet soon when we don't watch the weather. It's really bad...
Oh well..I miss the sunny days!!
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~
The 3 days of interviews and auditions are over! And I did 2.5 days of interviews, that's about 30odd people for me! And talking non stop from 630pm to 930pm over once too many made me feel like taping it down and playing it, and get them to just tick and write their own answers.
I am really glad for my MJ people who got in :) yay!! our population is expanding! Marcus, Jeremy, Gerald T, and Huiling!! wooohooo!!
And i hope brother does his best tmr! It's our BIG day! We either make it or break it. So here goes our baby sitting skills! Jiayou comm!
Kinda sad that I had to walk back alone today. suddenly all the PGP people just moved out and no one to walk back with me after choir and the last bus...juatjuat takes only a few mins to get back! And I took at 20mins brisk walk...alone..scaring myself along the way when i didn't see these few white sheets of paper hanging down from the bus stop and walking straight into it...and lights suddenly blow off just as I walked past it! Freaky! And it was 1145pm.
And coz of choir, I missed block initiation..and the bonding with the juniors. I am really phantoming from block...not by choice..and missing "jasmine's" 21st birthday celebration!
And I got back hungry. Good thing siao er had donuts! And we shared 2 small donuts! Bathed with lix and erz :) Loving my 5th floor short wing life now :)
Went down after that to wish "jasmine" happy birthday! But he was "sleeping" already. So had a small chat with weewen and got my textbook from him. "jasmine's" friends came over to hang a string of balloons across his door! sooo sweet :) but they ran off after putting it. When he opened his door, weewen and i sang birthday song to him! And he brought a little corner of his cake out for me :) Well, they saved it for me!! :) (just that lix and erz didn't tell me they saved a small piece for me! if not i wouldn't have eaten the donuts. Oh well, saving the cake for tmr :))
And I am a happy girl now :) Coz i know that there are people who care and think of me! And I'm glad that "jasmine" wasn't angry I wasn't around! happy birthday!
ps. jasmine = jia minh. I once mistaken his signature as Jasmine and I've been calling him that ever since :)
1st day of choir tmr :)sooo exciting! And I already have people emailing to ask me if the names on the list in the choir forum means any rank? And people calling me to tell me they are so excited and shocked at the results. I'm quite too actually. But, we'll see how.
Free day tmr but i'll try to start studying!! I MUST!!
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And I shall do some exercise by going for volleyball training later at 6am :) Support "jasmine" :)
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ There's nothing more than a family :)
First time balloting for 4 modules for tutorials was exciting! And I am glad that Huifang and I got through it all :) Yay!! We got all 4 of our choices and my timetable is much loved! though it looks a bit crammed...
haiz..poor sara didn't get all her modules... and that means we would be classmates for only 2 mods :(
Timetable will be up soon :))
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Life has been rather fun and I am kinda missing the holidays! The Flag team grew really close for the last few weeks of planning and it still carries over till today! Lunch with Weewen, Zhu and KelChew was great and entertaining! And now, they are out for supper! Don't know why they have soooo much energy! Kinda feeling a little hungry now too though...
I'll miss the days with them. But life goes on. And I don't know why I am putting it aside so fast...
Maybe it's coz I am too tied down with the post marketing and sponsorship stuff. There's loads to do!!
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Choir auditions today was fun :) With many people coming back to help and interact! I am glad it went well! And interviewing people was also great! But tiring and thirsty-ing... There's more to come! Wheeeee!!
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Loving my shortwing girls too! :)
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~PiNkdELiGhTs~ K k k k k rrrrrrr!
Day 0 of FWOC
It's the first day with the freshies as they start moving into hall! One year ago, I was like them...A stranger to many things. But thanks to Jonathan and Jun Kang who moved my things to my room and a warm welcome from them, I settled in quite fast! And of course, there was SIAOER! Who is now my NEIGHBOUR :) 5th floor shortwinger!! Thanks loads for the door gift :)
Flag comm met at 2pm and we sorted out the door gifts. (Coasters from us) We watched the Flag intro video too! IT'S AMAZING!! The video was simply fantastic! Well done Ethel, Jelaine, Kelvin and Yu Hang...they spent countless of sleepless nights just to do that! And it was really cool!! Too bad its too big to put on youtube! haha! But ya..coz of that, many of us had to show our bimbo side of us which...made quite a big impact on the audience I must say! They remember us now at least!!
Icebreakers with freshies were not too bad! E blockers are from Oreum with Amelia and Lionel as our Fwocers! They are reallly enthusiastic!! I just hope their enthusiasm will stay with the rest of Fwoc! Daryl and Cabin are in my OG! More crap and laughs with them!
And while playing one of the icebreakers, we had to say something interesting about ourselves. So, when I caught the yard of string, I said that Ethel and I are twins! And some of the freshies really believed!! Something wrong happened when we were born I guess!! :O
I just bathed...and after 2 hours of flag meeting, I am really sleeppy!!
More tmr!!
Nites all!!
~PiNkDeLighTs~
Sad and depressing posts aside!
As the whole flag comm goes into a hysterical mode of stress and deadlines to meet, we should put away all other unhappiness and grumbles aside. Everyone is showing signs of "huo qi" now and then coz they can't get the stuff done. But I haven't seen anyone blown up yet! Like venting anger on others.
I must say even though things don't go the way I want it to be, it still flows nicely!
I really love the chapalang gang (aka miscellaneous) for making things move so well thus far! We are almost done with publicity stunts, bazaar prep, auction prep! Just have to wait for next week when the real show starts! Our deadlines are all by monday!
I'm really proud of zhu and myself for completing the slideshow :) Don't really like the ending, but it's alright :) I almost teared when I saw it...hopefully that will just hit the audience straight in their hearts and minds : )
1 day to FWOC!!!! And a year of being a kent ridgean : )
3 months with these people have just passed this fast... I shall try to be more understanding and lend more helping hands when can! Afterall, we are one family...
And thanks to yiwern for making such an effort for the frame on my door : )
Full pic of the comm : ) 16 of us!
Ethel Twinny and I :) (yup, we share the same bdae)
~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Let's move on!
I am back from Batam!
It was a great trip with the FWOCers and the Flaggers! Well, maybe not so smoothly. But at least we managed with situations and built the friendship on those.
We suffered minor injuries from playing at the waters, walking, climbing etc. but all back safely :)
Food was wonderful with us paying like a little less than $10 each time for a sumptuous meal shared between 12 people. Flaggers showed lots of love and shared everything that we had, even to creating a din at the dining table just to serve each other. Even the Fwocers were amazed at how dynamic our team was. We just love helping each other - which I am glad for :)
I tried many stuff such as Jet skiing at the beach! And foot and nail spa for 100000 rupiah ~ $15! And a lot of other great food!
We had loads of fun in the night watching movies, playing cards, playing POLAR BEAR! :) where I seriously loved diverting attention! A big group of people just make playing so fun!
It was a great bonding session with the Flaggers! Thank you YiWern, Zhu Hui, Twin Ethel, Jelaine, Jasmine, Weewen, Gim Sen, Shawn, Yu Hang, Kenny and Kelvin! I really enjoyed myself with all the crap, love, care, concerns and chats that we had! Through this trip, we have grown closer to each other and I am sure I'll miss you guys when flag has ended!
I didn't bring my camera, so pictures will only be in facebook by YiWern and the rest who took pics...we took a lot of stupid pics..hehe! Our favourite pastime seems to be camwhoring!
Btw, the cruise ride was not bad. Maybe I was very tired..I slept all the way through the 1 hour ride just now. And I'm feeling tired now too...oh well...it's been a great week with the travels that I am starting to miss home...
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Happy Birthday Daddy ;) I hope you like the new shirt :) And the birthday cake! Big baby! But don't grow any bigger kk!!
LOVE YOU DAD :)
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~PiNkdELiGhTs~ Loving the people :)
Hello all!
I am away for hall comm retreat at Batam from today till Sun.
Will do many updates when I am back :)
Russia was great! And NUSChoir came back as overall champs :) 100 points (full marks, perfect scores) for both Open Mix Adults and Sacred Music :)
TKChoir came in 2nd overall with 100 points in Open Mix Youth and 96 for Folklore!
I am glad we went :) St. Petersburg is a place I definitely want to go back again in the future! And when I do, I will go back to buy my Russian doll! A bigger one :)
Some pics are up on facebook already!!
Gtg! Take care everyone ;)
LOVE,
~PiNkDeLiGhTs~
Hi all!
I am now in room A319 with xuan and huluz :)
CampBlueBlood is starting!! 1 year ever since I have known Siaoer...girl! I miss you!!! Happy 1 year anniversary :)
CBB is going to be lots of fun! And the briefing was quite fun and not draggy long...
I am going to play my hearts out and try to do some work inbetween.
As of now, I am super tied down with the camp, having 2 games to be IC (which I have no idea what it is now) and 1 food IC :)
But even with the work, I am glad that I'm in CBB :) I hope I'll enjoy it more than being a freshie! And little xiuqi is coming! With she being in my sister group! Shhh...don't tell her I said that :p
Will update more when I have the time.
And so, I'll be on camp from today 5th June till Sat 7th June with Thurs night and Sat afternoon given to choir!
SLEEEEEEPPP!!
with only 5 hours each night, my body is beginning to show signs of cui-ing-ness.
~PiNkdEligHtS~Lord, please be with me...
Can someone show me some light at the end of the tunnel?
Can someone tell me that my life is a light unto them?
Can someone tell me that I have not lived my life in vain?
And can NUS please tell me I can still see light to the end of my uni days...
Another disaster has occurred in my education life and it has not made me any happier.
It's worse this time.
Maybe it's the way I studied...
Maybe it's the modules I took...
Honesty tells me that I have tried and really studied to the best of my abilities and I STARTED EARLY!
I have learnt my lesson from last sem and did my tutorials.
I tried to keep awake at most lectures.
I paid attention in tutorials. I asked...
BUT, it didn't pay off...
why...
and why does it seem that it's MY FAULT?!
I did not want it to happen...
Did you have to throw a tantrum in front of me? can't you just say some nice encouraging words like you always have? Or maybe that's why I am like that...coz you always do encourage me till I take it as if nothing happened...
I wanna leave home...
Still, congrats to my dear friends who did well :) Or at least well enough to me. And no, I am not being a brat.
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