It's like showing that your friendship is worth more than my friendship with that same person.

Stop it ok! Coz I don't want to know what you are going to do with that person and that that person invites you out and you are going to have a very good time, and still ask how come I'm not invited or there when others are.

I'm trying to get myself out of this quicksand. But each time, I get pulled back in with having to overcome all these news that is hit at me. I am giving in a lot of courage and strength by stopping myself and changing this whole relationship and mindset that I have. So stop pulling me back into this dilemma and emotional state again.

I don't want to know. If this is your way of making yourself better then go ahead. But do it to others who have no concern at all coz you're hurting me. Do it to someone else who treats this person like a friend and no others. I'm still trying. So don't hurt me further.

Sometimes I just wish I didn't start it. Or didn't have feelings at all. Coz I know no matter how hard I try, I need a very long time to pull myself out of it. Emotions get the better of me. And though I know the two of you won't work out, I just don't like the fact that you click better with this person more than me. Or are you just showing off. Coz I do have times where I think I can show off too but I just don't.

I hate this feeling...