Delight in simple things!

Some how when you have let things go, and dismissed it as a habit, things seem clearer and less heavy weighted on the shoulders.

Naturally that went through a period of rough times, broken hearts and multiple teary nights... And times of feeling stupid. But that's all part of growing up.

Yes, I'm still growing up.

And that's why these relationships never last. I need to stop raising my expectations.

But at the end of today, I can safely say I'm trying to be normal. Give me a little while more and I'll be alright once again.

It's always this time of the year, strangely...

I'm just missing your messages...

相爱容易，相处难。
找一个爱你比你爱过他的人。

There must be a reason why all of these things are happening. God gives me so many awesome friends and makes my mood really hyper about everything else. But when it doesn't go the way that I was thinking about, it all dies a hill top rolling down experience. Just another way of making me stronger, I guess?

Maybe it wasn't meant to be?

All that hope raising and attention I was getting. All that friendly messages and offers I was receiving. It's all a scam. All a fantasy.

There's a reason why there was an initial attraction. And that it got too much and too tiring.

When others start talking about you, and you lose your footing in this game, you are gone.

And that's how a stupid rumour got our lives all messed up again. I admit I was rather stupid in doing so. Thought I was brave enough now to go ahead with it. But looks like it didn't work out. I'm definitely not trying again in a while. Just want to get out of this mess first and let life go back to normal.

Life goes on. And he's probably not the one. He wasn't and never will.

'Am I giving up too easily?' could be a question.

I've decided to send him a message soon to clear the air. And misunderstandings. But just thinking about it, how did i get so thick skinned about things?

I hope things will go in a direction where we'll be back to the mysterious days of just knowing each other as colleagues...

And so I've gone all nuts - I think - about someone. Nuts in the extent where I try to start a conversation even though I told myself I was not going to, like not talk to that person at all TODAY. But it never would happen.

I've also been hoping to see him being online, because then I know he's at home and not outside.

But then I think he's beginning to find me irritating. I just want to talk to him :(

And a habit probably it was where 2 Sun nights he came by, picked me and off we went for Starbucks.

So for the past 2 Suns I have been silently hoping.

Nope, nothing happened.

The little devil in my head has been incessantly said "Told you already, he's just being very nice."

So what? Is there no chance?

I truly believe so!

But will it come to fruition?

The past 2 days meal intake has been weird... Practically did not eat dinner.

Yesterday i admit I had too many sweet drinks! Mum steamed 2 small char siew pao. Teh in the morning from huijie (coz she lost in a mini game we had for the team), green tea latte at a client meeting during lunch. After which we went to buy gong cha for the office. And a packet of mee pok which I ate half, and half a fried fu pi Juan and one har kaw at Phil's farewell. A few pieces of seaweed and that's all since 7pm!

When I got home at 9, I thought I'd just grab an apple but my hands just didn't go near getting one.

Indeed, I didn't eat much yest...must be the sugar.

The day before I had a mini gala apple and Thai for lunch and a cup of yogurt for dinner. Basically that's all I had...

I'm probably just lazy to eat or find food to eat. But the next few days is all about eating!! :) so guess its good to give the stomach a rest once in a while. :)

There are some empty spots as I relook into my older blog posts since 2007. This blog was started in Jan 2007 (read: http://pinkdelights.blogspot.sg/2007/01/new-beginning.html) and since then I've tried to document as much as possible.


But, there was a whole section in 2011 that was not updated at all. The whole of last year was full of ups and downs, with the new social media space in place, it's really convenient to share everything on Facebook. To date, there's twitter and weibo on my list as well.


Let's see how this goes.

Got tickets to the first rehearsal from brother! :)

One bad thing was we got caught in the rain while waiting to enter and when we got in, we couldn't choose seats. Those who came late actually got better centre seats!! Oh well...

Goodie pack is actually quite good!

What happens when you start thinking too much into things once again?

It could possibly be 'everyone is being treated the same way'. What makes you think you are special?

Just because the other person is different from all others that you see and makes you feel totally comfortable at dinners and car rides home.

And sweeps you off your feet when suddenly just asks if you want to go for cheesecake and drives down to your house to pick you.

What makes you think it's not another 'I also need to eat dinner and so you are free also' kinda relationship?

I've had enough and this time round, i want to cut the pain and agony even shorter.

But is it possible?

Should I carry on? Am I being myself?

Or should I just let go...

You know how often we watch shows and always hope a friend would just come by, pick you up and go for supper?

It happened tonight!

Was online surfing Facebook. And came across Starbucks' campaign. By going through a whole series of actions on their tab, I could get a coupon to get 2 summer cheesecakes for the price of 1 with a purchase of a drink!

And I know of a friend who loves cheesecake. Just sent him that link and picture and there a question of 'U up for cheesecake?' by him.

In half an hour, he drove down to my house, and we were off to siglap Starbucks!

1 hour of cakes and chat! Something which I've never done before but always hoped for! :)

I thank God for this friend and for the happiness i've been having the past month.

Drama. In reality now?

Cakes: earl grey jelly with lemon cheesecake and green tea with azuki beans cheesecake. Lovely!

And that's my dearest daddy :)

We celebrated his 35th birthday at Jumbo Seafood East Coast last night. He shall always be young and handsome to me :)

Love you daddy!

I'm quite liking the blogger app where i can just blog straight from the phone! Guess I'll be writing more outside now :)

Many a times, I think of doing something, writing about something, and say, "ok, I'm going to blog about it when I get home." But nope, that seldom happens where we get home and get all distracted by other work, conveniently forgetting about it...

I'm now still rolling in bed and finding a teeny bit of inertia to get out of bed. There's an exciting day full of meetings to go to again!

Let's go! :)

Nudge nudge! Blogging from the mobile app!

Fruit tarts taken at Cambridge! :)

I was intentionally getting back onto the blogging scene and continue to improve, keep this site alive. But I've changed my mind since there has been a lot of private conversations and posts that I have done earlier, too much info for the public. Thus, this is just going to be personal and not mixing work stuff in it.

The old blog template layout does not work anymore and the images have been taken off. So I'm down with a new template and difficult adjustments :( I have to rely on HTML and that's a BIG HEADACHE for me.

So here it is, just something new for now.

P.S. I've been following a colleague's blog for a while and it really amazes me at how powerful the blog can be.