It didn't happen once again..

There must be a reason why all of these things are happening. God gives me so many awesome friends and makes my mood really hyper about everything else. But when it doesn't go the way that I was thinking about, it all dies a hill top rolling down experience. Just another way of making me stronger, I guess?

Maybe it wasn't meant to be?

All that hope raising and attention I was getting. All that friendly messages and offers I was receiving. It's all a scam. All a fantasy.

There's a reason why there was an initial attraction. And that it got too much and too tiring.

When others start talking about you, and you lose your footing in this game, you are gone.

And that's how a stupid rumour got our lives all messed up again. I admit I was rather stupid in doing so. Thought I was brave enough now to go ahead with it. But looks like it didn't work out. I'm definitely not trying again in a while. Just want to get out of this mess first and let life go back to normal.

Life goes on. And he's probably not the one. He wasn't and never will.

'Am I giving up too easily?' could be a question.

I've decided to send him a message soon to clear the air. And misunderstandings. But just thinking about it, how did i get so thick skinned about things?

I hope things will go in a direction where we'll be back to the mysterious days of just knowing each other as colleagues...