If you could tell, I am actually not really enjoying this holiday. It's freaking me out more than I can handle.
An influx of sms' at 12am is a scary thing. AND I AM BEGINNING TO FEEL SCARED...
You msg me to say you want to meet me tmr night and with no smiley faces or please or thankyou or any kind words, just saying, can i have a meeting with you when you come to hall? is not kind enough for me. In fact, it's scary. I have no idea what you want to talk about. And it's probably going to put me down at any cost. I didn't know what s*** i am going to be into. And now I know why no one wanted to take up this s***** job that's super freaking difficult. And HEAVY RESPONSIBILITY. I am just not passionate about this duty. But no way can I pull myself out of this grave I have dug for myself.
I am lazy. And yes, I am dumb at this kind of marketing and sponsorship thingy. And worse still, I have no one else to help me share this job. The other 2 guys are like handling something else and I don't know how to delegate some of this job over to them. And here, people are saying they are confused over this whole darn system and have no urgency or initiative to ask me. Instead they just complain to their bosses over this thing. Have they no idea I have no one to complain or talk to about this?
And can I do anything about it?? I think this 3 months is going to be a terrible time for me.
Someone? Can help me to get sponsors??
I don't think i can do this alone...
I just want to do choir stuff and leave the rest alone...
Ame asked me yesterday (Sun): You are working on a Sun?
Yes, when she is just incharge of one comm, she can afford to work 5 day week and have a lot of free time. But when I have 1 lovely comm :) And 1 friendly comm :) And 1 camp comm and 1 freakingly scary comm made up of 4 comms, 24hours a day, 7 days a week is not enough time for me. Tell me how can i not work on a sun??
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I can't drop any of the comms can I?
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~PiNkdELiGhTs~ Feeling trapped...how...
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