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20:25 |

Can someone show me some light at the end of the tunnel?

Can someone tell me that my life is a light unto them?

Can someone tell me that I have not lived my life in vain?

And can NUS please tell me I can still see light to the end of my uni days...

Another disaster has occurred in my education life and it has not made me any happier.

It's worse this time.

Maybe it's the way I studied...

Maybe it's the modules I took...

Honesty tells me that I have tried and really studied to the best of my abilities and I STARTED EARLY!

I have learnt my lesson from last sem and did my tutorials.

I tried to keep awake at most lectures.

I paid attention in tutorials. I asked...

BUT, it didn't pay off...

why...

and why does it seem that it's MY FAULT?!

I did not want it to happen...

Did you have to throw a tantrum in front of me? can't you just say some nice encouraging words like you always have? Or maybe that's why I am like that...coz you always do encourage me till I take it as if nothing happened...

I wanna leave home...

Still, congrats to my dear friends who did well :) Or at least well enough to me. And no, I am not being a brat.

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02:18 |

If you could tell, I am actually not really enjoying this holiday. It's freaking me out more than I can handle.

An influx of sms' at 12am is a scary thing. AND I AM BEGINNING TO FEEL SCARED...

You msg me to say you want to meet me tmr night and with no smiley faces or please or thankyou or any kind words, just saying, can i have a meeting with you when you come to hall? is not kind enough for me. In fact, it's scary. I have no idea what you want to talk about. And it's probably going to put me down at any cost. I didn't know what s*** i am going to be into. And now I know why no one wanted to take up this s***** job that's super freaking difficult. And HEAVY RESPONSIBILITY. I am just not passionate about this duty. But no way can I pull myself out of this grave I have dug for myself.

I am lazy. And yes, I am dumb at this kind of marketing and sponsorship thingy. And worse still, I have no one else to help me share this job. The other 2 guys are like handling something else and I don't know how to delegate some of this job over to them. And here, people are saying they are confused over this whole darn system and have no urgency or initiative to ask me. Instead they just complain to their bosses over this thing. Have they no idea I have no one to complain or talk to about this?

And can I do anything about it?? I think this 3 months is going to be a terrible time for me.

Someone? Can help me to get sponsors??

I don't think i can do this alone...

I just want to do choir stuff and leave the rest alone...

Ame asked me yesterday (Sun): You are working on a Sun?

Yes, when she is just incharge of one comm, she can afford to work 5 day week and have a lot of free time. But when I have 1 lovely comm :) And 1 friendly comm :) And 1 camp comm and 1 freakingly scary comm made up of 4 comms, 24hours a day, 7 days a week is not enough time for me. Tell me how can i not work on a sun??

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I can't drop any of the comms can I?

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~PiNkdELiGhTs~ Feeling trapped...how...

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23:09 |

There's just so much that happened during the week..and I am tired of what is happening. Not to say that it is repetitive but it's just getting a bit too much for me to take. I am tired of writing proposals and letters to various people... Ah well..shall not complain too much about that...

I am enjoying Choir and all that I do for choir. :) I think that's the only thing that keeps me sane and moving.

24th May 2008 (Sat)

Today's practice was kinda under the weather..just as many of us are beginning to be under the weather in the morning. Which is bad, and we have to start getting used to the morning feel. Our competition is in the morning and we have to sing out the "atmosphere" even if it doesn't feel like it should be there at that time.

we spent most of the time doing luk luk choreo...and after the prac, harris and i went to see mj. I really hope we are able to progress as well as mj :) Their dance is almost near flawless. and it looks not bad :) But they are too big a choir to do any big position movements. I think the effect harris has in mind sounds great :) I hope we pull through! And I hope MJ gets great results in Olomouc :) JIA YOU my dear juniors!!

And our teaching stint at MJ is over..considering since the juniors can work on their own now :) And they have been doing a great job! Time for Harris and me to step back...

[Eguanas] Xianie says: (11:49:13 PM)
great job harris =0
harris says: (11:50:10 PM)
haha
harris says: (11:50:12 PM)
thank you (:
harris says: (11:50:16 PM)
thanks for helping too!
[Eguanas] Xianie says: (11:51:05 PM)
considering i made a mess the first time
harris says: (11:51:22 PM)
haha with good intention
[Eguanas] Xianie says: (11:51:39 PM)
woah, what a consolation =0

After seeing the dear juniors, we walked to the bus stop and started calling the other people like nad and mich. OO, but they all ignored the poor guy. We decided to go to parkway for lunch instead since 16 came. Along the way, mich and nad called back. Mich was at bugis and asked if we wanted to join her at city hall for shopping. So, we continued the journey to Suntec for lunch first before meeting mich.

We settled at Secret Recipe for tea :) It was a great afternoon spent away from the computer and emails :) And the 2 of them can be weird sometimes. I'm glad for such wacky seniors! :>

Went grandparent's place after that and my cousins have all turned DARK! And I haven't :( Losing my tan after all the time being in the sheltered room.

I had many things running through my head just now. And thinking about a lot of things recently... And seeing how some people have dreams for themselves and what they want to achieve, I haven't done any serious thought about that. And to think I said i'll use the hols to think. Till now, I haven't done so. When are you going to wait till Rachel? Till you graduate??

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~pInkDeLiGhTs~ I want improvement...

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01:10 | Labels: Hall, NUS Choir

I just need someone to know what situation I am in. (thanks siao er and nad for listening to me bitch!)

And no one can truly understand what I put myself through.

And I thought I could handle everything that I chose to do, and that I won't be alone! But so far, 4 committees and 24 hours a day for me...It's worse than studying for exams.

If you think I am enjoying my hols, you are wrong!!

I haven't had the time to pack my room which is in a horrible state still.

I haven't done my favourite hobbies.

I haven't done anything not related to marketing!

I haven't met my dearest friends.

I haven't really sat down with my parents for a nice long talk.

I haven't gotten close to God...

Am I losing the enthusiasm? Am I losing the faith? Am I losing the interest?

At least not for Choir! Which I am enjoying every second of it whether at practice or outside prac with the choir people.

Flag is also getting great :) Coz we are getting to know each other better.

But the overall marketing project is scaring me and making me feel really demoralised. And having people blaming me for things which I did not do is not making it better.

Welcome to the working world man...where you see people accusing you when they themselves don't bother. Who am I??

I just have to bear with this and hopefully get sometime for myself soon...

I thank God for Gim Sen and Nad who are great bosses :))

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~PinKdeLighTs~ A not so enjoyable holiday...

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00:21 |

Even though I am in the serious need of sleep now, I thought i'd just write down what I have been busy with ever since my exams ended!

It's ONLY BEEN 1 WEEK since school ended and I have been terribly busy already!

10 May 2008 (Sat)

After my paper, I went Vivo and then went back to hall to pack up. Finally moved home!

Bought nice flowers for the mummies :)

11 May 2008 (Sun)

Church in the morning. Went back to Harbourfront centre to buy more flowers for other mummies I didn't buy for and then went to grandparent's place for the MUMMY'S DAY POPIAH LUNCH :)

Yup! The mummies loved the flowers! EVERLASTING :))

Was at grandparents place for the whoooole day! Got back home and started cleaning some stuff in the room! MY MESSY ROOM!

Yes, the room is still in such a mess even though mummy tried to clear a bit of stuff for me. And they got me some ikea shelves and a new ikea roller chair :)

OO and after going to Michy's place today (19th May), I SO LOVE HER ROOM!!! It's pink and so nice to go back to!!

12 May 2008 (Mon)

Went to school with Dad and then had meeting. Went for VJChoir concert in the night. Entertainment value was quite high but sound wise, I didn't think it was as fantastic as their previous concerts and batches. Anyway, thanks to dear Ann, we got $33 seats! LOL! Thanks to Ann for BK dinner :) Went Starbucks with some of the choir peeps! And so, today marks the beginning of leaving house early in the morning and reaching home at about 12am.

13 May 2008 (Tues)

Went to school with Dad again and then had meeting...again. 2nd day in a row. But the company is great :) Feeling more bonded with them.

Had sectionals at 730pm. Before that had Subway with Adit, SS and slowly, the rest came. Start of eating fastfood as meals! :(

Sectionals was quite ok! And getting the TENOR guys to fill in the visa forms was LOADS of HILARIOUS FUN! I conclude, GIRLS are smarter at filling in forms!

Adyll gave me a lift to Aljunied mrt where I took the almost last train and got home at 1130pm.

Snooze...

14 May 2008 (Wed)

Met Nadiah at Raffles Place MRT and we walked to the Arts house for the CFA Leadership Retreat (Lead De Ship). Met Michy there! We had loads of fun playing some funny ice breaking games, meeting the rest of the CFA leaders, talking about the future plans of CFA and NAF and the choir. And for one of the ice breaking games, Nad, Mich and I with 2 others won! By no strategy! The others who played with strategy lost! HAHA! Does strategy work? Maybe in the long run. Or maybe we were just plain lucky!But well, we got chocs ;)

And we played the chair moving game which we played in MJ. And I seriously forgot how to! But well, we learnt from our mistakes ba! :)

Iris, Adit, Michy, Nad, Nick and I went to Funan KFC for dinner (yes, fast food again) and chilled out till 7pm when we went to VCH to watch a 6 man Ukraine Acapella group!!! THEY WERE FABULOUS!! I seriously don't mind watching them again!! SUPERB! :))) I shall try to see if they have something online :) When I have the time...

Home LATE again!

15 May 2008 (Thurs)

Another day with Nad!! Michy was sick so she didn't join us...Aww...she missed so much!

We had talks about CFA and Arts as a career (well, I am thinking of it :))). And about the vision, mission, values of the group. We did SWOT! So love what I studied! And got to interact with the other groups. Lunch was great at Charcoal..near Funan. And we realised the common problem among many groups - Lack of guys! WHY!! But I guess choir aint that bad. we still manage to make the numbers with quality singers too :)) Love the present Russia group :)

After the retreat, Nad, Iris and I whoosed down for choir in a taxi. And I was TRYING SO HARD to keep awake. If you realised, we didn't eat dinner. Coz we had loads of FOOD! CFA fed us almost every 2 hours!!

Choir ended really late! About 10pm. And we still had comm meeting. All in all, ended at 11pm. Caught the almost last bus. And the almost last train and got home at 1145pm. Spent 14 hours with Nad today! Watch out..more days to come...

16 May 2008 (Fri)

Went back to school for meeting. Literally whole day...Finally, got to go home for dinner :)

First day I wasn't home so late!! And no fast food dinner.

17 May 2008 (Sat)

Had choir at Siglap and saw MJ juniors :) We had a great practice :) Yay!!

Went to grandparents place and bought icecream for ah kong :) HIS BIRTHDAY!! Happy BIRTHDAY ah kong! :) LOVES!!

And I trimmed my hair :) Not much diff.

Didn't have lunch but ended up eating durians and icecream!

Epoh sent me back and mummy called back saying daddy wants to go out for dinner ;) Soooo, we went to TM's newly opened Swensen's to eat! Photos to come ;) We had a spread!!

Walked around. wanted to watch movie but I didn't bring my specs :((

Home sweet home early :)

18 May 2008 (Sun)

Church in the morning. Totally hated something... I don't understand...

Went grandparent's place and nua-ed there. Mummy cooked dinner. And totally hated something even more...

19 May 2008 (Mon)

OO! Spent 13 hours with Nad today! We have MANY MORE LONG DAYS to come together...

We went to the Russian Embassy today to do the visas! YAY! It's done :) $80 for the visas :( This trip is EXPENSIVE! Spending close to 3k...

Michy drove! It's quite steady :)

Went to Thai Express with Nad, Michy, Yuans and their friend Jasmine for lunch. Enjoyed the company! And then went back to Michy's place to watch Sister Act 2. Suppose to NAP! But well...the show was entertaining.

Nad and I chilled out at Michy's club while the rest of them went to tan and swim. Well, I never knew I could be so opened to certain things. I guess I am learning and trying to leave the shell I have always been in.

Michy's mum sent us for choir :)

Had the shortest choir prac so far! 2 hours only! And it went great :) I found it difficult to adjust to the acoustics of the audi. And it really shows that we all need to really work on our individual voices, and start listening out more. Seriously couldn't hear anyone else besides the people beside me - Nad and Beng.

We ended choir at 7pm and it took us some time before we decided to head to vivo for dinner. 16 of us! No restaurant, dining area could fit us all! So, after walking around, we agreed to meet at the open area outside (rooftop?) after da-baoing our food (which I had BK...again). So it was 16 people chilling out at the rooftop :) Thank goodness it was quite windy and cooling :) Nature rocks!

13 hours with Nad and about 13 hours with michy too! LOL! what a day...

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It's going to be another busy week :)

And I haven't met Weirdz or KXFZ :(((

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~PiNkdELiGhTs~ sleep debt is accumulating.

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01:34 | Labels: Hall, Home, JieMeis+Hungries, School

My exams have ended :)))

What a great way to end year 1 with a great exam :) But that's bad coz many found it easy. So, PRAYING FOR THE BELL CURVE TO BE NICE TO ME!!

I went over to Vivo to meet Xuan, SE, "Jasmine", Huiru and da xiang for dinner :) We at at Hong Kong Restaurant Kim Gary. It was alright but the company was great :) I love hanging out with these guys! After that, the girls went to get our eyebrows trimmed at Sasa. They are having a free makeover and eyebrow trimming at all Sasa outlets! Don't say I didn't share ;) But whether or not you think its good, you have to know that it is free! So don't complain!

We surprised Huiru with Haagen Dahz's icecream + brownie + candle. And a birthday song :) Along with the staff of HD :) And more cam whoring! Pics when xuanie uploads.

Moving back to home was terrible. I had so many things still to pack and Dad was patient enough to help me. We took about an hour to move everything from my room to 1st floor to the boot and then to home. Till now, everything is still in bags on the floor. Terrible...I don't know how I am going to find space for all my things!!

SiaoEr had a terrible time too! She was quite stressed at moving the stuff! Well, this is what happens when you have 10 months of stuff in your room! Next sem, we will not have so many things in our rooms! And moving out will then be easy :))

But I am sure going to miss the girls! The next time we probably meet as a whole group will be in July since we would be travelling at different times. But NEIGHBOURS for 2 sems :)) That's something to look forward to!!

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I was writing letters to Mummy, Ah Ma and Ah Kong, and I realised how much I miss them and how much I miss home!! It's been 4 months of school and I haven't been talking to them much and caring for them. I teared as I wrote the letters... It hurts...

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~PiNkdELiGhTs~ Happy Mother's Day :)

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09:09 | Labels: Hall, School

Another 6 hours and I AM FREEEEEE!!!

This 2 week long exam has been "great", well in a sense that it wasn't too stressful. And as I post my last post before my exams end, I feel really excited!!

I slept at 2am last night after tossing and turning in bed and trying to keep cool coz the weather was freaking hot!! Thank God, it rained :) And the night became cool and cosy to be tucked up under the quilt. I thought I would be so tired that I would wake up like 9, 10am, but no, I woke up at 730am!! 5.5 hours of sleep, but with some really weird dream...how much have I recharged??

Anyway, I am really excited for the paper! I hope it goes well coz I don't want to end the exams on a really bad note.

Thank all loads for the many encouragements from Wei2 especially who never failed to MSN me each time she sees me online! And to Jie for her continuous encouragement! And of coz zhen who has been there through many major exams with me ;) To MichY, Xuefang and Harris who keep entertaining me while I study outside or in hall! And to my best friend in class - Huifang who keeps trying to keep me awake while I study, and calls me for a few hours the night before the exam to go through test papers with me and all the formulae etc... :)) And to all others who gave me *hugs* online!

Also to my hall mates - LIX, Ame, SE, Huiru, Twin Ethel, Chooi, Pearline, Lishi, Angela, Weelee, Wang Jue, Jiemin, Rach Pang, Andy, Benedict, Yiwen, Prof Tan, Benny, Robin, Daniel Tan, Lean, "Jasmine" for the continuous encouragement coz I finish like REALLY LATE!!! Like at the END of the WHOLE NUS EXAMS!! Yes, still feeling a bit sore, but nvm...

Val, Pius, Weewen for going through this last day with me! Hehe! Even though we didn't study together!

Weirdz, KXFZ :) Thanks all!! Time to make plans soooooon :)))))

My first year as a NUS Bizader will come to a close at 3pm when I put my pen down.

And of course, my second semester of staying in KR comes to a close tonight as I pack and leave...

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ I Will Remember...

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09:38 | Labels: Hall, Home, Schedule, School

Its 5 days to the end of exams!!

This 2 week exam duration is starting to get a bit dreary and long... But to think of it, how on earth did I survive O levels and A levels?? We had so many other papers to take and now, I only have 5!

My mind has been preoccupied with so many other things rather than studies. I am already beginning to think of what are the things that I am going to do!

1. HAVE TO REAALLY PLAN MAY TO JULY ACTIVITIES!!

I have so many plans that I forgot which day is for what! And considering I have family, friends, choir, hall and other stuff to juggle! Oh man...Good thing is that I don't have to study and I can fully concentrate on the other events!

2. Meet up with EVERYONE ELSE I HAVE SO MISSED IN THE PAST SEMESTER!!

And that Includes KXFZ, WEIRDZ, JCOC, MJChoir Alumni, MJChoir : ) Dawn, JS and the gang, And Nicholas, Marilyn, Mrs Chan And so many others!!

Any others that I have missed out unintentionally, PLEASE TAG!

There are too many things to do already and these have taken top priority, but it comes with so many other responsibilities.

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I spent Sunday slacking (as long as the books weren't seriously touched). Sun afternoon was at home. I ended up sleeping from 2pm to 5pm! And got up to study for a while before MUMMY'S SUMPTUOUS DINNER : ) She made chicken teriyaki and chawanmushi. Mummy is the best!

We sat at the dinner table talking, watching the charity show from 7pm to 10pm! I didn't have the mood to study so Mummy said take a break! And so, slacked for 3 hours again!

Started studying after the show all the way till 1230am when Mummy went to sleep. I thought I could study a while more, but at 1am, I was on the table snoozing. I guess I really need to study with people. I was studying at the dining table and Mummy was nearby watching her show. So that was a bit of company : )

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It's neighbour's last day of exam today and Siaoer completed her's yesterday! Congrats girls!

Our 1st lap of the race of the paper chase is coming to an end and I am grateful to have known you all : )

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It's going to be studying with Huifang today at Biz lib! I HAVE TO FINISH MS TODAY! *Another going to be dead paper* haiz...when am I able to take modules that I like?? These uninteresting to me modules are killing my CAP...

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Paper chase...

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01:21 | Labels: School

I am waiting for my hair to dry (since neighbour is not around, I don't have the hair dryer) and too tired of studying already. So, I thought I'd put some thoughts down here. And I should be sleeping soon when I need to wake up at 7am!! It's Sunday :) And I miss JCOC. Seriously!

Anyway, Stats paper yesterday was a killer. I died terribly and I just hope I can pass the module. Oh man...I really hope I can. The feeling is worse than my PS module. Argh!

But I felt quite relaxed while doing the paper. Hmm...I have been quite relaxed anyway. This exam didn't put much stress on me. And I think it's coz the papers are all spread out. In one way, I am quite happy that it is :) It doesn't matter if I end late or not - This sem is again. I am ending later than my friends! But I have loads of time to study for the next 2 mods - Econs and Management Science. Can't slack though! I need to get an A for Econs to make up for all the other killer papers.

However, I slacked away the whole of yesterday. Even as my paper ended at 11am, I didn't spend the rest of the day studying! The Fri lunch partners didn't meet yesterday and that meant, last Fri's lunch at Biz - dumplings and mango dessert was the last of our lunch dates this sem. KY! Please get into NUS! Then we can have more lunches! Miss you guys :(

I went lunch with huifang instead! She is so cool and funny! seriously! I am glad for a friend like her in biz! And we are going to take the same specialisation!! I hope we do the same mods tgt next sems again! :) It was a relaxing lunch at biz with fish soup and mango longan dessert! :)

I packed some stuff for dad to bring back. And the afternoon was spent going up and down, chatting with xuanie and andy and siao er, bringing stuff to dad's car and xuanie's car...we probably need a few rounds before we clear everything!! I still have lots to bring home! thanks to xuanie for helping me carry the stuff down ;)

I had a weird feeling in the night...

Woke up at 735am and went bkfast with Huiru! Amazing eh! I managed to wake up!! :)

But after breakfast, I just slacked my morning away, print notes, tried to start studying. But couldn't...

Lunch today was on Siao er :) She cooked maggi mee and added potato with garlic cream soup to it :) YUMMY! Thanks loads Er for lunch :)

And just after lunch, Harris smsed to say meet at 4pm to study. we were suppose to meet for lunch but he wasn't back yet. So I met him at Central Lib and we walked the 3rd and 5th floor looking for a table. But it was still very packed! I don't understand how people can study there! It's just too claustrophobic for me already especially when you can't see outside to the "world" and greenery! I felt too restricted there especially when you just coughed a bit and you feel as though everyone is looking at you.

So we decided to go out to Central Forum where we studied last week. but it was freaking hot! And halfway down the stairs, Harris suggested the Deck (Arts Canteen). we went there and saw people studying at BK! We went up and there was aircon!! But it was just for a while coz they were closing already. About 5+, we decided to migrate coz it was getting too stuffy!

We went downstairs to the back of the drinks stall and found a nice area where it was windy and yet alright, quite a scenery. The other areas had people eating the not-too-bad steamboat and it was quite smoky. We had wanted to eat that for dinner too but when we saw the queue, we waited, until there was no more :( Had dan-dan mian for dinner instead, also from the sichuan stall.

Studying tonight was quite productive :) We studied till 1030pm and went to wait for bus. Met Siaoer and Benedict on the way. They were studying at SOC which has discussion rooms and AIRCON! But I can't study with them...coz they would study till 2,3 am! And I was tired...

Well, i found great studying friends this semester and I feel I have studied more than I would alone. I guess I got to be out and away from my room with those distractions - going online, cleaning the room, reading everything else but my notes etc. Studying outside where you can't do anything else but read your notes, and play with handphone, chat with studying friends now and then.. it's better that way :)

And since Harris and I don't really talk much while we study, we could study for a long period of time before crapping. It was just great having someone studying with you and it was quite relaxing! Erm...maybe coz my exam is on Thurs. hehe! If my paper is tmr then it would probably be another feeling.

But I managed to finish 5 chapters of Econs - half of my syllabus, but that's just reading the notes. I have to finish by Sun night the whole syllabus! If not I can stress out again! Harris finished 4 chapters of his helpsheet which was a good thing instead of leaving it all the way to the night before the exam again (which would be Sun night! since his paper is on Mon).

We got to start studying earlier next year!! And I am so going to pull him out to study. We can't possibly leave all studying till the night before the exam! Our CAP needs to go up!!

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OO! I am going home after church later and mummy is going to cook dinner :) Won't be bringing my Mac back so anything please get my on my phone :) Will be back on MON!

And I am so happy that my bro and I are doing just great! We crapped over sms! Like never before!! :)

~PiNkDeLigHtS~

Yes...there are some things that I shouldn't know. And even if I do, I don't think I can let go. I am still holding on. Why?? I don't understand why!!

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19:02 |

Careless soul!

O! Heed the warning!

For your life,

Will soon be gone.

O! How sad...

To face the judgement!

Unprepared...

To meet thy God...

Stressed.

But there's nothing that I shall fear since facing the judgement day shall be more than any other thing.

Tmr's Stats paper is gone for me.

Just hoping I don't get another D.

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~PiNkdELIghTs~ I am screwing up my uni life.

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