Mood:
`feeling really down
`feeling really stupid
`feeling really cheated
`feeling really exhausted
`feeling hated
`feeling bad
`feeling mean
`feeling stressed
`feeling like leaving the house
`feeling like just sleeping the days away and never wake up
`feeling like just not talking to anyone at home
`feeling like just staying out and being with friends and never to return home
`feeling like just shutting myself out from the family
`feeling thankful I have great friends out there for me
`feeling thankful that i once had happy times with the family
`feeling a lot of different feelings

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I thank dianne for the long talk with me! I am feeling much better. And I found the thing that makes me happy and distracts me from all the stupid things going on. which was driving! :)

Well, its more like CI that cheered me up.

Driving lesson as in the drive itself was horrible. Yesterday was perfectly perfect. But today was horribly horrible. Everything that I did wasn't good. And not to the perfect state I did yesterday. And I wasn't paying much attention to the road. I changed gear too early or too late. I didn't change the gear back to first gear when I stopped. I did too many mistakes and should not be forgiven.

Totally not on form today.

But CI was nice! He didn't chide me. He didn't scold me. He just said, "Xiao jie, what happened to you today? Not quite on form ah..."

Me: Don't ask me why! I really don't know!!
CI: Why? Why? WHY??? Double-you! Hedge! Whye! WHY?!
Me: I ALREADY SAID I DON'T KNOW! DON'T ASK ME WHY!
CI: W.H.Y!

I was suppose to be pissed with him. but I bursted out laughing. I think this is one of the few times that I really had a true laugh in days.

He was nice! The morning started off nice! (besides the quarrel i had with mum just before i left the house.) I got to the cdc quite early about 815am. Just as I checked my car and about to sit down to wait, CI came in to report for work.

CI: eh! so early ah! Got lesson right?
Me: Yah...
CI: Oh! Is it me or another instructor?
Me: Huh? You lah... *i was very moody. didnt even smile at him.*

5 mins later...

CI: Hey! Later go straight to the car (at the starting point.) *waves his car key in front of me.*
Me: *I was on my mp3 and couldn't hear him. Only heard go straight to the car*. HUH? Go where?
CI: The car lah!
Me: Where lah!
CI: Starting point.
Me: Orh..Ok...

And the students around me were staring coz how many of a time do you see an instructor speaking to a student like that! Plus, I was on my mp3 and talked a bit loudly. hehe!

827am...

I started walking towards the starting point to look for my car. And halfway there, CI called from behind.

CI: Xiao Jie! Eh! Xiao Jie!
Me: *I was sms-ing. Turned around and went towards him.*
CI: Nah! *He handed me the car keys!!*

It was so cool! The feeling of being given the keys!! And the other instructors were all looking on and were like...EH! CI! Start so early ah! (No no..they called him by his name. not CI!)

829am....

I was in the car already!! And starting to move off! Woots! The benefit of being early and knowing the instructor so well! I did think last night about msging CI to ask him if could start earlier since we more or less knew we would be seeing each other for this lesson. But I didn't. Oh well, guess its fated that he actually did what I thought of doing! hehe! So, we were the first car out to the circuit! But...trouble began as I showed I was quite not on form today. Bad...

But we still went out after all the bad events. And I thought he was going to keep me in the circuit. But he did let me out! And was yah...wondering why I performed quite badly today.

He played with his phone and was trying to set his hp radio. Someone got new handphone lah...and it's sony ericsson also! So, he was asking this user (me) how to set radio. And he borrowed my handsfree set!! I will get it back on Fri!! Why? Because he said he still kept his handsfree nicely in the box. Well, he was lucky it could fit.

Along the way, I commented I have only 3 lessons left...
CI: Don't worry lah! you can do it! Oh yah! I want a clean sheet for circuit ah! And of course for you to pass lah!
Me: Yah.. I hope.
CI: You can de! Pass le, Tues I ask for early off from work then we go dinner together ok!
Me: Yah right...like you can...Anyway, I got to work. And got tuition also.
CI: Aiya...
Me: Sad right?
CI: Yah loh...You treating me what!
Me: ... eh! then you let me drive your car!
CI: siao! you think I will meh?
Me: Then you think I will treat you meh?
CI: ...

And so, I have no idea if dinner is on or off on tues! I just hope it is because I AM GOING TO PASS ON TUES! I better...

Thanks everyone for the support especially Shuzzie and Di! :) I will make sure I go on a dinner date with CI! haha!! :)

Seriously, my mood is better now! :) All thanks to CI! hehe! Oh yah! He borrowed the "condoms" from me just now. Why? to show his colleagues. Oh well, my name in CDC has gone even much further down. Or maybe Up in the other sense. And he better not embarrass me!! Btw, he put it in his car and going to tease all the other students today. Looks like he would have fun again...because of me! Yah...he did say today that he has lots of fun teaching me! More than the others! :) Even though my lesson today was horrendous! hehe!

Got to sleep! I wonder who I am getting as the instructor tmr since G is not back yet~ Still looking after his kittens...was what I heard from CI...

Meetin sarah tmr! Woots~
Meeting Shaz, Az and Sarah on Fri for somewhere on the green line for MRT and yet we still have to change train on the green line! Hehe!! :)
if only LC and Di could join us...

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~pInkDeLighTs~