Delight in simple things!

Some how when you have let things go, and dismissed it as a habit, things seem clearer and less heavy weighted on the shoulders.

Naturally that went through a period of rough times, broken hearts and multiple teary nights... And times of feeling stupid. But that's all part of growing up.

Yes, I'm still growing up.

And that's why these relationships never last. I need to stop raising my expectations.

But at the end of today, I can safely say I'm trying to be normal. Give me a little while more and I'll be alright once again.

It's always this time of the year, strangely...

I'm just missing your messages...

相爱容易，相处难。
找一个爱你比你爱过他的人。

There must be a reason why all of these things are happening. God gives me so many awesome friends and makes my mood really hyper about everything else. But when it doesn't go the way that I was thinking about, it all dies a hill top rolling down experience. Just another way of making me stronger, I guess?

Maybe it wasn't meant to be?

All that hope raising and attention I was getting. All that friendly messages and offers I was receiving. It's all a scam. All a fantasy.

There's a reason why there was an initial attraction. And that it got too much and too tiring.

When others start talking about you, and you lose your footing in this game, you are gone.

And that's how a stupid rumour got our lives all messed up again. I admit I was rather stupid in doing so. Thought I was brave enough now to go ahead with it. But looks like it didn't work out. I'm definitely not trying again in a while. Just want to get out of this mess first and let life go back to normal.

Life goes on. And he's probably not the one. He wasn't and never will.

'Am I giving up too easily?' could be a question.

I've decided to send him a message soon to clear the air. And misunderstandings. But just thinking about it, how did i get so thick skinned about things?

I hope things will go in a direction where we'll be back to the mysterious days of just knowing each other as colleagues...