There is this sense of emptiness filling me now.

It's like the kind of feeling where there is no one there beside me to talk to me and laugh with me. It's an undescribable feeling.

Or maybe I am just tired.

Or maybe I am just being emo.

Or maybe I am just being random.

Or maybe I am just feeling the stress.

Suddenly, it's like I am transparent and all people do is to walk past me and move on with their lives.

Or maybe I am just being sensitive.

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Maybes...

Maybe...

Maybe...

Life is full of uncertainties.

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Lunch dates have been really weird. And it seems to be hitting straight into the heart and mind. Yesterday's lunch with Ziwei set me thinking and I thank her for the advice. Looks like I aint the only one thinking so much.

After dinner talk with Siao Er made me realise that it may not last coz everyone is just trying.

Lunch today with Ann, Wendy, Jameson and Aifung made me realise that it's not so easy at all.

Talk only seems all so easy. But when it comes to actual actions, it's really not easy after all. And what happens if so much courage is plucked up but yet it's not the answer you want to hear? And what happens if it's even worse than the worst prepared for? Is it going to be the end of the road of friendship? Is it going to lead to even more wounds?

Talk with Aifung on the bus made me really tired of all these things. (no no..not because of her...)

Seriously, what's my motivation for this sem? And what is it that I want to achieve? There seems too many committments that I have accepted and now, I have to juggle with so many feelings and thought processes.

And if the boss wants to lighten my load by getting someone else to help me, why am I feeling worried and sad? Why am I feeling like as though I am afraid of losing something?

This is just not me.

Maybe I shouldn't stay alone...
My thoughts will just run wild.
Concentrate!!

It's only the beginning of the semester!

Stop looking forward to anything and don't raise hopes too high. The higher the hopes, the harder the fall.

Maybe it's just better to remain status quo.

What's the conclusion?
Am I going to continue to write the story?
Am I going to wait for the fantasy story to happen?

When will the knight in shining armor come?

Maybe it's just the introduction.

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I am tired...

Or maybe it's just the feeling of growing another year older and out of the teens where everything was sheltered.

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Unreciprocated love.

What's the meaning to it?

Disappointment.



Hurt.

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Keep me safe in Your arms, Father...
I am here...

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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Confused...