There are seriously a lot of things to be done!!
I spent 1.5 hours just replying emails and delegating work to my members! And I kinda got a little pushing from my boss that we are really behind time...
And for my other boss, I got a little reminder that I haven't done a lot of things!
I guess I am really lagging behind on my work. AND THAT INCLUDES SCHOOL WORK!
Much as I really want to sit down to study and to really read through all that I have, and really make the new sem a very good one, I havent had the time to do so!!!
And my brain has been giving me lots of stress by not wanting to shut down!!
Last night, I went to bed about 1230am. And tried so hard to sleep! But all I heard was voices in my head and seriously, it was voices that I know like from friends or relatives and they were talking as if I could really see them and they were there. I know it's the subconscious mind coz i was quite busy and stressed out. But it was really scary coz I really wanted to sleep and hearing these voices just freaked me! And I wanted to wake up so badly that I tried to jerk myself and tried to end the voices in my head. But to no avail...
It was a struggle to sleep last night...and I do hope it won't carry on.
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I had a disastrous stats tutorial today. seriously had no idea what the tutorial was about and everyone was talking louder than the tutor!! ARGH my other tutors better not be like this guy...
And during lectures, sara and i were trying to hard to stay awake... the lectures were good but it's just very tiring...
I HAVE TO STAY AWAKEEE!!
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Voice class was just me, sheena and ann!! how pathetic. but we had a very fun time with auntie mary! Kinda great warmup as well! It's going to be a while till we next see her like after our concert...
Anyway, choir was fun as well with nelson coming down.And sectionals weren't dreadful. Still quite productive. And my standing position is in a very nice spot beside 2 super singers who can go to high notes! :) whee!!
And the soloists were great :)
But got kinda stressed out at the ticket sales...it aint doing very well and i do hope people will want more tix!! JIA YOU people!!
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Alrights...going to sleep.
And zhen, don't procrastinate!! make the right decisions kk! :)
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~PinKdeLiGhTs~ Meeting ziwei and wei2 for lunch!! Whee!!
And I shall stop being so concerned about a particular someone. The higher the hopes, the harder the fall. Rachel!! STOPPP!!!
There is this sense of emptiness filling me now.
It's like the kind of feeling where there is no one there beside me to talk to me and laugh with me. It's an undescribable feeling.
Or maybe I am just tired.
Or maybe I am just being emo.
Or maybe I am just being random.
Or maybe I am just feeling the stress.
Suddenly, it's like I am transparent and all people do is to walk past me and move on with their lives.
Or maybe I am just being sensitive.
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Maybes...
Maybe...
Maybe...
Life is full of uncertainties.
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Lunch dates have been really weird. And it seems to be hitting straight into the heart and mind. Yesterday's lunch with Ziwei set me thinking and I thank her for the advice. Looks like I aint the only one thinking so much.
After dinner talk with Siao Er made me realise that it may not last coz everyone is just trying.
Lunch today with Ann, Wendy, Jameson and Aifung made me realise that it's not so easy at all.
Talk only seems all so easy. But when it comes to actual actions, it's really not easy after all. And what happens if so much courage is plucked up but yet it's not the answer you want to hear? And what happens if it's even worse than the worst prepared for? Is it going to be the end of the road of friendship? Is it going to lead to even more wounds?
Talk with Aifung on the bus made me really tired of all these things. (no no..not because of her...)
Seriously, what's my motivation for this sem? And what is it that I want to achieve? There seems too many committments that I have accepted and now, I have to juggle with so many feelings and thought processes.
And if the boss wants to lighten my load by getting someone else to help me, why am I feeling worried and sad? Why am I feeling like as though I am afraid of losing something?
This is just not me.
Maybe I shouldn't stay alone...
My thoughts will just run wild.
Concentrate!!
It's only the beginning of the semester!
Stop looking forward to anything and don't raise hopes too high. The higher the hopes, the harder the fall.
Maybe it's just better to remain status quo.
What's the conclusion?
Am I going to continue to write the story?
Am I going to wait for the fantasy story to happen?
When will the knight in shining armor come?
Maybe it's just the introduction.
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I am tired...
Or maybe it's just the feeling of growing another year older and out of the teens where everything was sheltered.
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Unreciprocated love.
What's the meaning to it?
Disappointment.
Hurt.
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Keep me safe in Your arms, Father...
I am here...
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Confused...
Hi everyone!
NUSChoir will be having her annual concert soon!
Date: 17 February 2008 (Sunday)
Time: 8pm
Venue: University Cultural Centre (NUS)
Price:
$12.20 (before 3rd Feb. For those ordering thru me, it's at $12 :))
$15 (after 3rd Feb)
WHY GO?? :)
"Be drawn into the world of Temptations as the NUS Choir presents an evening of songs exploring the emotions of Man. Temptation and the Desire for Love, Peace and Victory is reflected in the pieces of the evening, starting with Haydn's Imperial "Nelson" Mass, followed by folklore pieces from the Philippines, Japan and Hungary."
There would be fantastic soloists especially the sop!! (nope..not me...)
And guys to look at...
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, I'M PERFORMING :)
And I have to sell 10 tickets. Please ask your friends along too ya :)
Hope to hear from you all soon!
And take care!
Love loads,
~Rach~
First week into the new semester and things have been moving on quite alright for me.
I have gotten all my modules with 4 preallocated biz mods and 1 gem - science and tech. I am quite happy with the time table and am going to make sure i make full use of all the free time I have! Looking at it, I have 3 rather slack days (only have 1 lecture or tutorial) with Mon and Thurs still my most hectic days!
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having a really stupid conversation with lc now...guess she is turning insane. A counsellor needs to be counselled sometimes!!
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (10:47:36 PM)
ZIWEI! I;M DROWNING IN LC'S PUKE!
*[Ližhën]*™ says: (10:47:53 PM)
ZIWEI SAVE ME!! I'M DROWNING IN MY OWN PUKE TOO!
*[Ližhën]*™ says: (10:48:04 PM)
AND RACHEL NOES HOW TO SWIM SO IGNORE HER AND SAVE ME FIRST!!!
Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (10:48:19 PM)
I AM PUKING! CANNOT SWIM!! SAVE ME FIRST!~
*[Ližhën]*™ says: (10:48:27 PM)
=p
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (10:48:31 PM)
LC CAN SWIM ALSO LAH!
Suddenly, I miss ZIWEI!!!
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Another stupid conversation:
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:23:51 PM)
willy...when you coming nus?
[-willy-] says: (11:24:03 PM)
not sure le
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:24:05 PM)
book me before others book me =)
[-willy-] says: (11:24:09 PM)
psfht
[-willy-] says: (11:24:12 PM)
lameeee
[-willy-] says: (11:24:17 PM)
i wanna do thursday
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:24:19 PM)
sure!
[-willy-] says: (11:24:23 PM)
but i'm not sure
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:24:23 PM)
eh..this thurs can
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:24:27 PM)
next wk cannot alr
[-willy-] says: (11:24:30 PM)
cause my friend is using my comp on wed
[-willy-] says: (11:24:32 PM)
hmm
[-willy-] says: (11:24:36 PM)
i'll try to work it kay?
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:24:39 PM)
=)
[-willy-] says: (11:24:43 PM)
we eat in the foodcourt issit?
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:24:46 PM)
no lah!
[-willy-] says: (11:24:47 PM)
cafeteria*
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:24:49 PM)
school canteen!
[-willy-] says: (11:24:49 PM)
lolzz
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:24:51 PM)
LOL
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:24:59 PM)
treat you to mango sago =0
simple, sincere, effective says: (11:25:05 PM)
oohs a date
[-willy-] says: (11:25:07 PM)
haha alright deal!
[-willy-] says: (11:25:10 PM)
haha eww
simple, sincere, effective says: (11:25:12 PM)
lol
[-willy-] says: (11:25:13 PM)
her dad is coming too
[-willy-] says: (11:25:15 PM)
and umm
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:25:17 PM)
asking sean also la!
simple, sincere, effective says: (11:25:17 PM)
ahh
[-willy-] says: (11:25:19 PM)
sean
[-willy-] says: (11:25:21 PM)
haha
simple, sincere, effective says: (11:25:23 PM)
chaperones
[-willy-] says: (11:25:24 PM)
hehhe
[-willy-] says: (11:25:27 PM)
psfht
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:25:31 PM)
bleah
[-willy-] says: (11:25:32 PM)
rachel has a bf kayy
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:25:36 PM)
ME?!
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:25:37 PM)
who?!
simple, sincere, effective says: (11:25:38 PM)
she has????
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:25:47 PM)
who's the guy?
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:25:50 PM)
how come i dont know?
[-willy-] says: (11:25:55 PM)
idk. but why in the world would she be interested in me
[-willy-] says: (11:25:55 PM)
hahaha
[Eguanas] Xianie: Varsity Voices '08 says: (11:26:00 PM)
dots
simple, sincere, effective says: (11:26:06 PM)
hahaha
simple, sincere, effective says: (11:26:07 PM)
................
[-willy-] says: (11:26:07 PM)
lolzz
simple, sincere, effective says: (11:26:09 PM)
k la
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And no....I am still single and available =)
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Monday: 14 Jan 2008
Dad sent me back and my great buddies: siao er and lixuan came down to help me carry my things up :)
And Dad sent Sara and me to school! :)
Had Stats and Law lect. Both lecturers are super cute and funny that I couldn't fall asleep in class, which is a GOOD THING! :)
Had lunch with xuanie, kian and piuzy.
Went back to settle some stuff before going for sectionals at CFA. Had a wonderful choir practice :)
Tuesday: 15 Jan 2008
Went Engine with xuanie and siao er to eat lunch! Found out from yan ling that ME lecture was cancelled and that there would be a makeup lecture on 26th!! IRRITATED..
therefore, i had no lesson on tues.
Yanling came over for a while since she had no where to go and hang out. so i took her in. haha!!
went to watch siao er's net ball match. they lost but they played well =)
played bball with ben and xuanie :)
Wednesday: 16 Jan 2008
Went Vivo with Siao er, xuanie and ben. walked around..still trying to FIND MY CREAM/OFF WHITE SHOES!!
Met Amie and Daniel Tan aka Clown for tea and we sat at TOASTBOX for the rest of the afternoon. Celebrated Amie's belated birthday :)
Went back hall, had a disgusting dinner of not so fresh breaded fish, and salad drowned in mayo.
Dad picked sean and i up and we went for bible class - bro lawson mayo taught a very good lesson on revelation :)
talked loads of crap after class with sean and willy!! And sean was worried about his module bidding. LOL!
Thursday: 17 Jan 2008
Had stats lecture. stoned but yah...didnt sleep!
Had cup noodles for lunch coz was too lazy to go out to buy.
Went to Raffles Hall to meet xianling to settle the choir tickets stuff.
Had a very hungry sectionals...seriously hate sectionals...ann bought buns :)
Ah ma's bdae!! i made her a handphone pouch which she loves :) They went Tung Lok for dinner! But I couldn't go!! All coz there was choir...
Adyll was quite pissed during practice but that was coz we didn't do what we were told...
Tickets was very nicely settled and I am so happy it is working out well :)
Waited for the comm to finish their meeting and we sang thru the mass a while and then we went for supper at Raffles Hall! The food wasn't too bad. edible at least...
But the company was great! we had adit who played our choir songs on his er hu which made the song sound so sad!! and we sang songs that we learnt from our previous choirs and musicals :)
xuanie was so very concerned about me going back late...
it was really the first time i stayed out so late on a supper! we left raffles at 3am. It was a good thing that Adyll drove and he gave me a lift back :)
slept at 4am with a very wet head of hair...
Friday: 18 Jan 2008
Woke up at 1030am with a messed up hair!! Settled my Cors stuff.
Met Harris at biz. We had mango sago dessert and drink :) I was seriously stoned while talking to him. Still dazed from the late night out.
i went to forum co-op after that to help kok yong get some panadol while harris went to the bus stop to pick ky.
we went to arts canteen to have lunch. AND KY IS SO POPULAR! he met and talked to more people than harris and i did!
It was a very fun lunch and we are going to meet for lunch every fri :)
went for MS lecture. Seriously boring...but its cheem!
went back, chat with xuanie. and got scolded by her for staying out so late the night before. >.<
met with kelvin for a meeting and cleared some doubts :) I'm getting my namecard sooonnn!! :)
Went for internship briefing!! SO STRESSEDDD!!
haiz...
if i have internship, i can't go sep... and it may clash with choir...
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thats the week...
gtg :) starting another week of school!
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~PinKdELiGhTs~
This post will be colourful coz I just realised Mozilla allows me to have the tools to edit the posts! Usually, I would use Safari and that browser doesn't have the functions to edit the posts! :)
NUS is into the first week of her 2nd semester of AY 2007/2008. And i have gotten my modules already!
Monday:
10-12pm ST1131A - L
12-2pm BSP1004A - L
3-4pm ST1131A - T
5-6pm NUSChoir Voice Class
6-8pm GEK1505 - L (Webcast)
630-830pm NUSChoir
Lunch partners: Hui Fang, Sara and class M people.
No time for dinner. Snacks.
Tuesday:
12-2pm BSP1004A - L (alternative)
4-6pm BSP1005 - L
Lunch partner: Daddy :)
Dinner: hall people. If not, free :)
Wednesday:
11-12pm/12-1pm GEK1505 - T (not confirmed)
3-6pm BFS1001 (Finishing School) week 7-12
730-10pm JCOC Bible Class
Lunch partner: Lixuan
Dinner partners: Hall people / Daddy :)
Thursday:
9-10am BSP1005 - T
10-12pm ST1131A - L
1-2pm BSP1004A - T
3-4pm DSC2003 - T
630-10pm NUSChoir
6-8pm GEK1505 - L (Webcast)
Lunch partners: Huifang, Sara, Class M people.
No time for dinner. Snacks.
Friday:
10-12pm DSC2003 - L (alternative)
2-4pm DSC2003 - L
Lunch partners: Harris and Kok Yong
Dinner: hall people. If not, free :)
Saturday:
NUSCHOIR :)
Exams:
28 April - Afternoon : GEK1505
29 April - Afternoon : BSP1004A
2 May - Morning : ST1131A
8 May - Morning : BSP1005
10 May - Afternoon : DSC2003
I freakingly end on the last day of the whole NUS exams at 3pm!!
ST1131A = Introduction of Statistics
BSP1004A = Legal Environment of Business
BSP1005 = Managerial Economics
DSC2003 = Management Science
GEK1505 = Living with Mathematics
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That's the timetable for this semester and it does look rather slack. I just do hope it is... But when projects come in...that's another story.
Free time would be used to mug. Seriously going to become a mugger:
- watch webcasts
- read textbooks
- read notes
- do notes
- print notes
- do tutorials
- study bible
- prepare for youth meetings
- prepare for LF meetings
- do marketing stuff
- do biz pub comm stuff
- memorise choir scores
- prepare for mjchoir alumni meetings
- catch up with friends (really hard but i hope i do.)
- etccccc...
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~pInkDeLiGhTs~ JIA YOU!!!
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I tried this quiz which Di posted on Weirdz blog (quiz originally posted on Zhen's blog).
And school's starting in 12 hours time! But I haven't packed my things to move back to hall and not printed my notes!
STOP PROCRASTINATING!
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Slacker no more!
"to love in a fantasy world..."
The reality hits back.
Quite unlikely it would happen to me.
I have been watching too many Taiwanese romance drama that has cast this illusion over me. And the recent show which I have just finished watching is Romantic Princess (Gong zhu xiao mei by Wu Zun and Angela Zhang). It's so drama but not as drama as Devil Beside You and Tokyo Juliet.
Well, these shows have turned me into a Fahrenheit and WU ZUN fan to be specific! (Not that I think they sing fantastically well, but they do look good and do sing nice catchy tunes.) They are just the every girl wants kind. Note: It's GIRLS. I am a little overgrown for that, but it's just an escapism from certain things. I'm not making them my idol (coz idolism is bad!). I am just making them an eyecandy?
I used to like 5566, but the "love" for them has died off...ssshhh! Huimin! Don't kill meee!!! >.<
So, I am using this last free day to surf on Fahrenheit! And came across quite a few cool websites!
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/high0915
This one has many nice pics of them! And due to copyright or whatever, i shall not take the pics. Shaz! You'll go crazy with your golden hair monkey :)
I want their new album!! And big poster! I found a teenage magazine that I bought in Nov and there's a poster of them!!!! WHEE!! It's going back to hall with me tmr :)
Are there any other Fahrenheit fans out there who want to watch their concert with me? When they have that is :)
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School's starting tmr. And so is choir!! Whee! I am going to start it right from tmr! Though I think there are already people who have finished reading once through the textbooks! I'm going to put up my timetable..soon...like after I get my LWM tutorial. (kinda lazy to put it up too! Hehe!)
Anyway, it's going to be a busy sem! Much as I am so, so, so involved in Church work now! Had the first official LF meeting with me as the 2nd i/c. I foresee many activities..I should have known when I first accepted the role. And that was when I thought I was quite free.
And then there is the new youth outreach programme that is going to be organised by Jurong and LAP youths! We had our first meeting yest at Jon Yang's house at Kembangan! Yeap! It was VERY near for me! While the rest took more than an hour coz they came from Jurong! And I got pillow slammed by Willy coz I said it took me only 10 mins. =)
So, there was quite a good balance of people from each congregation:
LAP - Jon Yang, Yinyin, Daren, Melissa
Jurong - Willy, Sean, Ruiqi, myself.
We are going to be heading this pilot project and we do hope response would be good and that it would sustain!
Go!
Jia you!
Equip yourself with the word of God!
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ Delighting in the fellowship :)
I had a very busy day yesterday.
went with Gracelyn to CDC! Yes..she signed up for driving lessons! We were suppose to meet at 930am. However, she called me early in the morning to say she didn't have the photos! So, that meant I wasn't going to CDC...and night before I told CI I would be going. I told him why I wasn't going down and he told me we didn't need the photos anymore! He was "angry" that I didn' believe him coz I said the website said needed!
Anyway, my dad was a very nice guy! He picked Gracelyn up at Eunos and drove us to CDC! It was an unpleasant experience by trying to sign up. Well, it could have been because it was LUNCH TIME and coz of us she couldn't go!
I met CI for a while since it was his lunch time but we didn't say much. To think of it, it's been 6 mths since I got my license!! :)
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Went lunch with Gracelyn at Yoshi TM. And caught up with her a bit :)
Gracelyn, I hope you do well at driving! And meet up soon for steamboat!!! :)
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After that, I went back to Hall for meeting with sponsor and Kelvin. It was an experience!! I didn't say much coz I really didn't know what to say!! This is my first BIG project! And i do hope to do it well! JIA YOU! :)
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It was catching up time with Andy, Siao Er and Xuanie while we waited for Huluz to finish training! It's always good to have the opinion of others to think about and realise that there are actually other ways of doing things...
We set off for Dinner/Supper at BEDOK NORTH BLK 85 at 745pm (meeting ben there)! LONG JOURNEY there! But it was worth the time! We had loads of food to eat! Rojak, Tang Yuan, Bak Chor Mee, Chicken Wings, Stingray, drinks!
Thanks loads to Andy, Siao Er, Xuanie, Huluz, Ben for the wonderful meal! May we have many more makans!! Next stop: Serangoon Chomp Chomp! :)
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Meeting Weirdz now :) Byez!!
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~PiNkDeLiGhTs~ FOOD FOOD :)