Dearest Zhen,

It's been so long since I wrote a personal letter to you and I am doing it openly here on my blog!!

I accept your public apology and really heartened to know how much i mean to you!

As how affectionately I call you "zhen" last time and even now, I would do so even till the far future - when we get married, when we have kids, when we have grandchildren, when we grow old and die...That's how much I would forever remember the times we spent together! And that's how much I am looking forward to keeping our friendship!

It is truly fate that brought us together. You know the amount of trouble and pain that both of us went through to eventually best friends - the best of best at one point in time. Although I do not have a memory as good as yours, I will always remember the days that we stayed back in school to chit chat and study; going out on saturdays after class or project or shopping and then heading back to Macpherson. I always loved the talks that we had on our own, in the bus, reminising of the past, thinking of the future. There was just every single little bit that I could talk to you about. Even about my family matters! (Which I must update you about...)

Don't be too sad over the shawl! I know you didn't know about it and it wasn't done on purpose! My grandma wouldn't be angry and disown you or whatsoever just because of a shawl! We think of you everytime and would continue to do so. Why? Because you are a nice girl and thanks to you that I was able to study for O's and A's. Imagine if you weren't there for me? Do you think I would study? Do you think I would be a good girl? I may have been led astray! But because of you (and the others...but most of the time I was with you!), you helped me learn a lot of life's meaning and how to be street smart! I must say you are more down to earth and willing to take risks. This is one thing which I would hardly take the courage to do. But because of you, I learnt a lot. You are part of my family, and would always be! :)

And I would never forget the 1 to 2 hour long chats we would have. It's a pity that we hardly do talk now. I do agree that we are drifting far apart and I do find myself changing also. I am more english speaking now, and am losing my chinese slang which i would always talk to you in! it's so hard to communicate with anyone in uni with mandarin! It's like hardly used at all! Even so, you and i don't totally just use mandarin when we talk, we use english too. it's so different from the past..

We have both found new cliques and hangouts this year; We share problems with a different set of people; We have different priorities...It's all a phase of life and I guess we can't break away from the fact that we have been classmates for 6 years! We may not be in the same school now, and not communicating as often as we do, but I am sure that our friendship still holds! Not only with you, but with KXFZ and Weirdz as well! I may make new friends in school and hall now, but that doesn't mean I forget about you girls!

Time is really limited in Uni. In a twinkle of an eye, we are going to have our final exams already. Then holidays. Soon, it's back to the "A levels in 3 months" system. It's really hard to cope now in first sem as I am still trying to adjust and get a hang of how my life should proceed. And living away from home...

In many occasions, breaking down was the only way to find refuge and solace. And calling you was always on the list. But, I always do not...

I want you to know that you would be my best and closest and most loved friend, even before my husband! Coz you know me the most, and seen me grow from sec 1! We still have many more wonderful years ahead of us and I am sure we are able to cross over all crises, and be there for each other!

With loads of love,
~Rach~
ps. I am not able to write so emo-ly as you do, zhen! Seriously, I was very touched and sad by your entry. But it gave me courage and confidence to move on as i know my best friend would be there for me even when everyone else doesn't. :)



This song's for you zhen!
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And i am sure we would continue to love each other as we have always did!

this goes out to weirdz and kxfz too =)

I am sorry for neglecting you guys lately, been really busy to the max! And the NTU people are going to have exams like next week??!! >.< so, you guys better really start studying!!

And I have to start studying too...3dec is my first paper!! ARGH!!

i do hope to make time in dec for you guys!! But as of now, it's taken up by NUSChoir and Hall!

Oh yes!! Zhen, it's cambodia i went last year =)
And I am going to vietnam from 14-20 dec!!

We must meet and go sentosa kk =)

see ya guys!